Wah what a day...caught 2 TRANSFORMERS movie in a day haha oh man...too much too much. Anyway it wasn't on purpose though. Went to watch transformers with mark. We went to amk hub to catch the transformers movie. Must say the hub is pretty cool. The new movie theatre is pretty good =D Anyway was watching the movie at 6.45 when 7.15 i received a message. A message from LL hahha. Wah very long never see her le. So of course naturally when i saw the message asking what i was doing later on i replied nothing haha. So i watched the movie till 9 plus then quickly called my mom asked if she got car and then took bus home. Went to bugis to fetch her and her friend. Sent her friend to geylang to meet her boyfriend. After that her friend left with her bf then me and ll went alone to great world to watch movie. Haha wanted to watch surf's up but don't have the movie. Then she said could consider die hard 4.0 since i already watched transformers but just then a couple who was standing at the cinema entrance wanted to go home cause they they were too tired to wait for the movie and so being the nice people we are we bought from them! And that was how i watched transformers twice haha. Unfortunately the timing was at 12.40 and we reached like 11plus? Haha so went to macdonald's and got a drink sit down and chat chat keke. Got bored decided to go Kim Seng only to find it closed and then walked back AGAIN to great world. Haha watched the show till like 3.10. THEN when going home i forgot which level i parked hahaha oh man. Spent nearly 15 mins finding my car when she was already so tired liao. Sorry LL!! =). Sent her home then went back. Reached home at 4 and slept! And i just woke up haha. Haha ll hasn't aged at all, don't know why lost contact with her haha but she still manages to retain her notion of laughing at everything haha. I cannot believe the jokes she tells but some are quite funny =D. I enjoyed myself yesterday really thanks for asking me out ll =D Well anyway transformers was a damn cool movie. Optimus prime especially when he transformed from his truck. Give it a try. You'll enjoy it.

Suddenly i just have this urge to buy a dog but i don't know why. I guess i want a companion. How i wish if i had a dog and able to fulfil my promise to it by feeding it, bathing it, combing it and loving it. I promise myself to do all these but can i really do it as the years go by. I don't know but i know if i am able to do it i can cultivate my sense of responsibility. Time to grow up. You're accountable to everyone including yourself. Anyway i need to save some money to be able to buy one. Mom isn't going to fork out the money for me arghh. Hope i can persuade her.

Haha fallout to old school gamers is surely a very remembered word in their gametionary. Fallout 1 and 2 were one of the fun post apocalptyic games that i ever played. Ever since Bethsda studios took over the project to create the sequel Fallout 3. Everything has been going downhill. I had already feared bethsda will use their Overhyped of the year Oblivion as a benchmark to create Fallout 3 and so they did. Oblivionout3 is what i think of it now. They have nearly changed the whole face of how the game is like. What stupid idiots and they think the game they are creating is fun.

Maybe if they didn't use the word Fallout they could have made a great game but using the world fallout means they have to have some expectations about how the game is going to be like.

Haha and everyone is making fun of fallout 3 in its development stage.

If the dialogue is like in oblivion i'm going to kill myself. Fallout has one of the most interactive dialogues in a game. Oblivion's? Just constant asking of stupid questions. RUMORS? YOURSELF? lol i can't get enough of the jokes on beth's forums

Haha wow after checking my pisces characteristic it seems most of the parts are spot however i will take out certain points only.

"He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. "

And thus showing how hard is it to open up.

"He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you."

"He can be happy and content by himself. "

The last part is most important haha i can really be happy and content by myself if i want to.

"He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. "

This part is kinda hazy as i will only do that only for my gf if she wishes so. For instance, NOT MY MOM & DAD ASKING ME TO STUDY HARDER

"He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail." How true.

Why did i used to fall for the wrong girls? Girls whom i can never catch their heart. Maybe i was from an all boys school and 10 years left me liking everyone? But after that incident my heart just froze. Oh how i wish it could melt again. But it doesn't seem possible, my current state doesn't allow me to do anything.

We must all learn to accept responsibility for our choices in life. There is no point whining and bitching. I am a lazy student whom will never do well in life. This is my choice and i accept it. Times will be tough but i did what i chose and i shall have no regrets.

And it just seems at times u are nothing but a tool to be used. Never will you be appreciated.

If you can't even care for yourself how do you care for others? Time to start spending time with yourself

Wow i can't believe i didnt watch rocky's last movie rocky balboa. It was pretty inspiriational to see a 50 plus 60 plus old man fighting against a 20 something year old heavyweight champion? I enjoyed the movie thoroughly. Although its just a movie i wonder if i can be as faithful as rocky after his wife's passing. He still misses her all the time. Visiting their old dating spots and where they used to meet each other. It was pretty touching. If i ever have someone i doubt that will happen. Anyway some of the stuff between the characters were pretty worth noting.

"Do what you think you have to do, don't care about what others think. If you feel it is what you want to do and you feel it is worth doing do it." This was between rocky's conversation to one of his new friend whom he walked her home when she was just a kid.

The next best quote i think was between rocky and his son. His son always living in the shadow started bitching about his dad always overshadowing him. So his father scolded him that blaming was for cowards. This quote which is from my msn nick says "You ain't going to have a life till you start believing in yourself".

To those whom have never ever watched rocky then this show ain't for you but if u have then this show is worth seeing. Buy it, download it i don't care just watch it.

And how i wished i had orchestra kaki's the grandeur that is heard from the orchestra is just so invigorating.

Haha too bad with my crass character its hard to attract any friends whom have some higher interests like orchestra.

WOO although it wasnt as i expected but some of the songs were real cool. Too bad that they didn't have the symphony's music such a pity i liked lost oddyssey and shenmue's music ah well. You can't have everything =).

It was great with the orchestra listening to the cries of the audience for an encore haha and so they did and they even added a new song which was from game axis polls about having an encore song. Shinobi was voted haha. Man..all the classic games just makes me remisence about my old gaming times oh well.

Sent mark home after going home to take the car. Got bloody lost haha dunno where i turn to but luckily it was in ang mo kio so managed to get to a familiar road and go home. I'm still blur like hell ahh

One of the rare times i go out shopping for groceries with my dad but it surely is memorable. He parked at the disabled lot and i was smiling to myself when i saw him do that. I even asked him can whether it can be parked or not. It's amazing how much we spend when we go out grocery shopping i think he spent nearly 400 bucks. Well his preparing for father's day on sunday so the beef yeah its a tad lil expensive plus the condiments? Man..what an expensive father's day celebration haha. What's more he forked out 1.2k for my school fees in cold hard cash and where were the money? All in his pocket. So dangerous la haha.

Sigh the sinseh is right..my constituition is so weak due to my youth days where i ate fast food potato chips and cup noodles without any fear. Of cos you might say other kids do that but i for one have nvr exercised in my youth and thats why they had no other avenue to exit my body.

I'm tired of being sick all the time. If his really as famous as he is i hope he can help me.

On the positive note can't wait for saturday. Play symphony is coming and i have the tickets for it woohoo. Hope its a great symphony. Fingers crossed

What a waste of time today was. WALKED to serangoon central only to find the UOB bank closed down, had to take bus from central to go toapayoh central and only to find a stupid long queue. Wasted an hour just to make a new bank book gosh.. Anyway was reading newspaper and walking home after alighting, when suddenly some orangish white thingy appeared in the corner of my eye. Was shocked only to look up and see two owners bringing their dogs for a walk. Apparently the huskey was sniffing at me so i saw its fur haha. Would have petted the dog had i not be shocked. What a day.

KBOX NIGHT HAHA WOO WOO
Although i didn't party much it was still loads of fun.
But my body limit couldnt take it and i slept for a while during the night haha.

Haha i'm impressed with Kok Rui he has the energy of a horse. Never ever tired. Thanks for making the atmosphere so enjoyable.
Haha and i finally got to see Eugene in action hahaa eh is really hyper when he wants too

"MM; class of burdens ta05 says:JOHN/SHANGZHAO/BOTAK.a really really really super duperrrrrr NICE GUY.gentleman is him.caring is him.but since he says.. nice guys die earliest in shows..then well, i hope he remains nice always"

U WILL BE GUILTY FOR THE REST OF UR LIFE WHEN I DIE! =D

"MM; class of burdens ta05 says:then well i hope he remains nice always.. but hes the exception (:"

That was ur saving grace =)

Haha oh man what am i doing.

Stop and think.
Have we always treated our friends with the utmost respect?
Have we cared for their feelings?
If no don't you think you're doing them a wrong?
If we're wrong are we willing to change?
Stop and think.

Like a weight hanging heavily on my mind,
It has finally been removed.
I feel much more happy and relaxed without it.
Whatever the consequences are,
i will bear it.

I will see nothing and feel nothing.
The anger will stop.

Imagine, driving your mom your first passenger for the first time after passing just a day ago. It is madness. What's more i drove on the PIE which is bloody lot of cars at 7 plus. I can feel my hands sweating already. Of course in the end i had lots of fun driving and she taught me some stuff. Of course when i was parking she snooked me twice when the reverse direction i told her was correct and she told me the opposite. Then she said yah yah ur just now the direction was correct. What a mom haha. Going back home i was turning into lornie road PIE and when i checked my blindspot i saw no cars then my mom suddenly scream at me to stop. Scared the hell out of me. She say must give way but the point was...there were no cars on my lane. I still need more practice though. Autocar makes driving dangerous. It's too easy to speed.

Why is the term friends,good friends and buddies so loosely used nowadays?

Friends are people whom you know and can talk to but you know will not be there for you when you need it.

Good friends are people whom they care for you and you care for them but are people whom you don't get much chance to interact with. Quality of time is more important.

Buddies are people whom are willing to die for you and whom keep hanging around always there for you every single minute.

How many friends do we have, which we treat as good friends, or good friends which we treat as buddies? It's like a pyramid. Friends from the base, good friends form the middle platform and buddies form the top which means they are the least in numbers.

In my 19 years of life i still havent found such a person that can be considered as buddies which includes my secondary school friends.

And are all nice people bullied? Why do i feel such indignity when i see nice people being bullied? Issit becos i'm one of them?

But how can i be nice?
I'm unfilial to my parents,
Making my parents worried for either health safety or studies,
I throw tantrums at my parents,
making my brothers worried for my future,
quarrelling with them.

I guess being nice on the surface is kinda redundant. Ultimately my family should have been my top pirority for a long time. I keep telling myself that but i don't know why it still doesn't happen. I guess its kind of hypocritical.

FINALLY I HAVE PASSED AFTER 2 TIMES I HAVE DONE IT!!! Many thanks to Mr Koh Chin Sing, for helping me secure an earlier test date, and for helping me correct my safety checks. Though i used 12 dollars to treat you it was less than enough. You saved me a bundle on revision lessons and also another test if i failed again.
Thank you Mr Ong Chin Hoe for being my driving tester. You made me calm down during the journey and helped me along. Though i could see u were lenient on me i still have to thank you for letting me pass. Thank you all.

I CAN DRIVE!!! =D Now for AFA which is somewhat going to fail but it wont dampen my buoyant mood =)

I may not see as clearly as others,
think as clearly,
talk as clearly,
but my feelings are clear.
However, it could be a gift or curse.

I could be ruled by it, or use it for good.
Jealousy arises from someone who has faith in his feelings,
and he will be ruled by it.
Anger arises from someone who has faith in his feelings,
and he will be ruled by it.
Care and concern however,
allows others to be more than who they are.

Do i now,
standing at the crossroads,
choose a path,
for greater good or evil,
or just continue forward,
where it is just human nature,
to be selfish at times,
and there is no point in fretting over it.