Being paid little, i can accept it. But being paid much lesser and the one with the higher pay gets all the benefits? That is ridiculous. I did not sign up to be treated like this. Please explain to my fuming parents why we are treated so shabbily. And if you don't have a good reason? My parents will gladly withdraw me from it. That's all

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.
My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.
Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.
The way you left me on the train.
I don’t know what to say.
I remember everything of that day
I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance
Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling...thats all..

Haha and for once, in ngee ann i have won something. The captain's ball event in ngee ann and we got a medal for our win. Though i didn't do much but i was glad to be part of the winning team.

Simpsons the movie is nice if u enjoy lame humor(which i enjoy thoroughly haha). Give it a watch. "Spider pig, Spider pig..." Hahaha.

Sometimes i just wish i had more time to do the things i want. But i guess i have to sacrifice time for my studies now.

I wish...someday my visions will come true.

First i was supposed to be posted to suzhou but after being horrendously rejected by the company (because the teacher said i wasn't a female accountant, i doubt that i was rejected for this reason), the teacher decided to post me to tyco flow control in Shanghai. Ah..i hope i get into tyco. I hope i don't get rejected again. Although the teacher said she asked my acc tutors about me and supposedlyy i didnt have a good attitude?? I don't know who though. But it's okay, those lecturers or tutors whom say such stuff, i will prove them all wrong when i go over to China. I'll show them a disciplined and obdient worker over there.

我想通了，我也不急于需要女朋友哈哈。就慢慢发展把可能有一天我能改变她的心意也说不定。只是我走的路跟别人相比是一个漫长的路，所以我要比别人跟有斗志，跟有决心，跟有勇气才不会亏待于自己。不多说了。就到此为此把。

为何我一生都是一厢情愿，为何我总是在你眼里是个无形人。你知道你的冷漠让我多么的难过吗?我从来都没有要求你陪在我身旁而我只想要在你心里还有我这个朋友。难道我只是一个随传随到的陌生朋友吗?眼睁睁看到你和别人相处，我已死的心却还在哭泣。其实事实本来就摆在我面前我却觉得命运乃在我掌握里，我能创造一个新天地可是这却带来我一身痛苦。我乃性情中人，一点的飘动就像天塌下来似的。

老天爷，你为何一直如此对待我?我早已封闭我自己。让我能够在不受到伤害。你却帮我点燃我的心以后又在让它苦苦的受折磨。这又何苦呢?难到整我是你的嗜好吗?我一生就在这样下去吗?顺其自然，顺其自然。我已经受够了。我承认我是个没出息，没样貌，没前途所言。哈哈哈。我承认了。我输了，你赢了，你高兴了吗?我知道好戏还在后头。我就等你如何导演我下出戏把。可能我所寻找的每一个对相是错的。我没有自知之明。赖蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉。

哈哈哈真高兴啊!原来老天还在管我这个无名小卒。那我可以知道你一定要我活过百岁把。谢谢你了啊。我不用怕死了

My brother has officially graduated from SMU. Ha..his going to start a new phase of his life soon in China as an adult now. No more studying for him. Ah few more years and i'll be like him. Would i miss school when i graduate? I'll only know then. A busy saturday carrying newspapers and old clothes mostly at ten tons then attended my brother's graduation ceremony and took lots of photos. Then went out for shopping with joshua. Ah..a busy day practically doing nothing oh well.

Promises. A delightful word to use. Ah disappointment comes exclusively as you can be assured promises are meant to be broken. Truly worrying.

Haha i don't want to be a nice guy i want to be a loved guy. It's so much more different. Being nice doesn't demand reciprocation, a loved guy does. Why can't i be the latter? Tough case.

And yet after joy sorrow comes. Sometimes there's such a great need to cry but yet tears don't fall. It's like it exists but its just a transient existence. You know it's there but you can't feel it. The pressure is building yet i don't feel like sharing it with anyone. I need time alone. Maybe next week i can find some time alone after my projects. Physically fine, mentally exhausted.

Only You,

Sigh.

I just want to go China. Escape from my troubles and nonsense my family comes up for me sometimes. Tired. I just want to leave. I need a break from everything.

Heavens,
Why do you make sport of man?
Man has many desires.
Love,
Wealth,
Power,
Knowledge.
Man wants all these,
but i just want one.
Love.
Will you now,
grant my desire?
Or shall i suffer,
the long years in solitude.
Cursed to roam,
the endless roads of life,
as a lone rider?

Why do i always feel that whatever things i do it is redudant, i'll never be thought of nor remebered. Ah..there's always a hole in my heart that needs to be filled. It'll never be full not now not in the future not ever. Myself,Myself,Myself

I'm proud of you bro..you've always been the successful one in the family. Good grades good skills and when you were on the stage acting your role, it was your moment of brilliance. You're a guy whom i can never catch up to. I'm proud of you. Although i didn't cry watching your play but it was touching. Had it been a love play i would have cried. I've been very emotional recently yep. Ah nevermind haha. Anyway, I will remember how well you acted on that stage. You're going to be gone for 2 years soon. Cherish your last few weeks with your girlfriend before you leave =) I will meet you when i'm going attachment in China. Will see you again =)

Thanks bro i really am once again proud of you

Lol amazing how i forgot to add in my photo when handing up the soft copy of my CV. Ah..that kind of sucks but then again i seldom take photos. I just hope my employers don't find the photo ugly cause i look weird in photos. haha

Finally finished my interview. Didn't perform as well as expected but i should be going to China for my attachment. Sue tan is enthu about allocating me to all sorts of places. Most likely i'll be going Shanghai, Beijing or Suzhou. Hopefully its in Shanghai my brother is there.

I guess i have nothing to worry about since everything has been going downhill for me. Maybe i'll mature when i go over to China in six months time. By then i hope i still have a minute chance.

Why does all these stuff happen to me. It's always the same case. When i feel something up comes something. I'm think i'm destined to be alone. I'm going to put barricades around my useless heart. These sorts of things happens to me all the time. I'm just one helluva lucky guy. Maybe i can't even go China with my luck.

I just wish i could cry. But i'll shoulder on. I won't stop. Someday you will understand. You might not know who you are. But someday you will know

Argh why was interview cancelled today!! I want to get to know the results for my application asap..grr

I've made up my mind. All else can wait. Even if i stay i doubt i can do anything. At least going overseas gives me a chance for my future. I can't keep living in my dreamland. Time to face up to reality.

I feel like just an idiot. I don't know what am i doing. What is this? Argh.

Leave or stay. Should i? It all depends on your answer

I wish i could lie to myself. Living in my fantasy world there's only memories of joy. Should i face reality, my dreams will be shattered. Lost in my world is the only way i can lie to myself

白）爱是一种需要一种缺乏所以我们都喜欢情歌不管爱在进行中还是仍未萌芽不管你爱他比较多还是他爱你比较多爱或被爱其实都是一种喜悦在朋友那儿听说知心的你曾回来过想请他替我向你问候只为了怕见了说不出口你对以往的感触还多不多曾让我心碎的你我依然深爱着在朋友那儿听说知心的你曾找过我我要他帮我对你隐瞒只是怕见了面会更难过我对以往的感触还那么多曾给我幸福的你我依然深深爱着有一种想见不敢见的伤痛有一种爱还埋藏在我心中我只能把你放在我的心中这一种想见不敢见的伤痛让我对你的思念越来越浓我却只能把你把你放在我心中在朋友那儿听说知心的你曾找过我我要他帮我对你隐瞒只是怕见了面会更难过我对以往的感触还那么多曾给我幸福的你我依然深深爱着有一种想见不敢见的伤痛有一种爱还埋藏在我心中我只能把你放在我的心中这一种想见不敢见的伤痛让我对你的思念越来越浓我却只能把你把你放在我心中对你的声音你的影你的手我发誓说我没有忘记过而关于你选择了现在的他我只能说我有些难过我也真心真意的等过有一种想见不敢见的伤痛有一种爱还埋藏在我心中我只能把你放在我的心中这一种想见不敢见的伤痛让我对你的思念越来越浓我却只能把你把你放在我心中只能把你把你放在我心中
Argh too many words i lazy to space out haha.. but i love the lyrics in jolin's new song haha.