And ur call, has failed to make my heart beat and i know i've successfully closed myself again. After so many things has happened, i know i should live without em. Girls i mean. I can't make them happy and can only hurt them. Well. I've made my decision. Will it stay strong? I can only believe in myself. Stay away. Stay away

Behind every relationship there must always be some common factor between them no matter how much of a different persons they are. B&S's common factor? Both are kaypoh man..way to kaypoh.

And my final year exam is going to start soon. Hope i don't get recalled from my attachment. Its going to suck like hell

What's done can't be reverted. That's true.
If Hiro was real, time travel would be possible.
These things don't just happen.
If you could, you would have done all the things to set your life correctly.

Why are you revolving around lies, deception, decit?
What happened along the way?
What happened to the little innocent boy whom did geniune things for people?

You've become a walking timebomb.
Exploding at the time where you deal the most damage.

You've become a menace to everyone,
yet you refuse to end your life.

You know you can't forgive yourself,
stop lying to yourself.
You can't look people straight in their eyes any longer.
You should be terminated.
Or better yet,
live alone where you can't harm anyone except yourself.

Your can't deal with life's troubles and you know it.
My life for someone whose more worthy?
I will gladly give up mine.

Your life has amounted to nothing worthy to note.
Like the empress who told her princess daughter,
"Don't go all out to do good" and the daughter said,
"Can i do evil instead" and mother replied,
"Good you should not do, even more so evil you should not do"
And yet you don't seem to learn the lesson.

I don't want to deal with life's shit anymore.

And everyone seems to be getting better preference over me. I feel screwed. And it all seems like i'll be going alone soon. If the experience isnt as wonderful as it was said. I will be crying all the way to the airport when i come back. Ah..accomodation i need to hurry up find. GAHH!!

And it seems like i've stopped thinking about the impossible. Haha..well at least i stopped myself from doing something radical and its lucky i'm able to rationalise with myself for once. Haha when it comes it comes and i can't fight it but the time is not right that's for sure.

Waiting...or not. Maybe my studies and career is more important i just wish i could work hard at them.

And it all seems so long and can never be fulfilled..sigh.

My eldest brother has finally left for China on a two year trip. Until this Sunday i have the room all to myself! Haha that is when my second eldest brother comes back from his trip. Anyway it's strange now, it seems like just another day ago my eldest brother was just a student. Now his working already becoming a grown up. In just a few years time, would i be following his footsteps? We'll miss him that's for sure.