All right guys, I'll dedicate a post for Taiwan during the coming weekend but for now just some random stuff.
Was stoning in office for the last hour today. Just suddenly felt overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions. I guess it was a multitude of factors ba...it's my dad's 1 year anniversary today (well according to the Chinese calendar anyway), some in the past stuff which i probably shouldn't have mentioned or kept thinking about, impending departure to Australia, this damnned sore throat which refuses to heal & the leaving behind of the people who shared the 22 years of my life in Singapore :).
Haha...it's kind of hard to leave all this behind..& listening to Sammi Cheng's 最后一次 now is just kinda snowballing the emotions at hand as I'm writing this entry. Mom just told me that my second brother asked if she was assured with me going overseas all by myself. Surprisingly she actually said she was very comfortable with me going, just worried that i might like the computer game addiction get to me and get in the way of my studies.
She actually told me that I'm the one she's most comfortable with me going overseas all alone because she believes that I believe in only doing things that i think are right. If someone tries to persuade me in doing something which i think it's not right, I never end up following. I hadn't thought about this before and thinking back it's really true. I'm not going to name the examples of course. She said my eldest brother is too emotional so he might humble himself just to accommodate others. Whereas my second brother is too sociable where he might end up in and endless cycle of partying and fun if his friends asked him too.
Heh, I don't know how true it is but in any case, I have to really moderate my gaming time and spend more time doing what i need to do to prepare for Australia. There seems to be so many things which i seem to be putting off & I think it's really a waste of time for myself if keep doing so. Well enough of this.
To Dad,
It's already been 1 year that you departed from us but we are still going strong despite of your absence. Many a times, I know that you saw me as the mirror image of yourself when you were young. That's why you always wanted me to succeed more than any of the other siblings or at least you believed that i would exceed my brothers in the future. Well, I don't know for how the future would end up, but at least I know that I will find my path in time & when that happens, hopefully, I can fulfill your expectations that you have had of me.
May i inherit the good traits that you had & not your bad traits.
Faithfulness to Wife, Loyal friend, Provider & Die-hard attitude.
Your faults i keep to myself to remind me what I should not become & my faults, I wish i had a mirror to reflect my own faults to try to correct them.
Wherever you are, be it in the heavenly kingdom or you being reincarnated, Dad, I wish you a happy and blissful life.
I will have the strength & will to put whatever I have written into actions. This i promise you.
In remembrance of my Dad.
Your Son,
Shangzhao.
