"If there is anything i am guilty of, it is that I love you and if I'm to be punished, I wish it would last a lifetime."
I'm still thinking how to add more "oomph" into this but well since I have neither a girl I like or girlfriend to test this on, maybe someone can help me test if it works :)
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
First quiz of the semester and its not looking good already probably 7/10? Think that's on the high end already. Sometimes I feel I'm really stupid or something. Seems to just go downhill from there. Or ever since my econs, I seem to have lost confidence in myself. Sigh..really wished I was smart in studying though. At least the time i really do spend studying would be fully utilised.
Oh well! I'll just leave this post as a reminder to work harder I guess.
Oh well! I'll just leave this post as a reminder to work harder I guess.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Sigh, results not what i expected for Econs. Saw the breakdown of results after a request to review my results. Didn't do as well as I thought since MCQ portion kind of got screwed up. I can't believe a subject I was so confident in I got screwed in the end. Average WAM is 80 but that's only because my accounting pulled every other subject up. Sigh. One Australian is kicking my ass left right and center and I'm supposed to be doing well?
Please this semester let me do well, pull up my grades! I really hope I can achieve that. First class requires average of 85 WAM. Wonder if that's possible for a stupid guy like me.
Please this semester let me do well, pull up my grades! I really hope I can achieve that. First class requires average of 85 WAM. Wonder if that's possible for a stupid guy like me.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Getting thoroughly stressed out by my family right now. HD HD HD..yes I know I need to get that but isn't there a better way to support me when I'm already stressed about getting a HD? By telling me to just ignore everything and get a HD doesn't even seem to acknowledge the effort i put in. It's just adding on to the pressure to excel. Couldn't even sleep properly yesterday night for my today's exams.
Feel like shit the whole day. 2 more exams and I'm done with this. Can't believe I'm bitching like a little girl every time I realized that I did a question wrongly after the exams. Though it's only one of the observable ones and the rest seem to be correct, I'm just panicking all the time. Really hate this feeling.
I'm tired, cranky and highly stressed out right now and without emotional support it's really getting to me.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
黄小琥 - 没那麽简单
作词：姚若龙 作曲：萧煌奇
没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己做决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱做梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人着迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己做决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱做梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人着迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱做梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人着迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆
Very meaningful lyrics about life..but never knew this song existed till my colleague showed it to me :)
Time for pondering...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
All right guys, I'll dedicate a post for Taiwan during the coming weekend but for now just some random stuff.
Was stoning in office for the last hour today. Just suddenly felt overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions. I guess it was a multitude of factors ba...it's my dad's 1 year anniversary today (well according to the Chinese calendar anyway), some in the past stuff which i probably shouldn't have mentioned or kept thinking about, impending departure to Australia, this damnned sore throat which refuses to heal & the leaving behind of the people who shared the 22 years of my life in Singapore :).
Haha...it's kind of hard to leave all this behind..& listening to Sammi Cheng's 最后一次 now is just kinda snowballing the emotions at hand as I'm writing this entry. Mom just told me that my second brother asked if she was assured with me going overseas all by myself. Surprisingly she actually said she was very comfortable with me going, just worried that i might like the computer game addiction get to me and get in the way of my studies.
She actually told me that I'm the one she's most comfortable with me going overseas all alone because she believes that I believe in only doing things that i think are right. If someone tries to persuade me in doing something which i think it's not right, I never end up following. I hadn't thought about this before and thinking back it's really true. I'm not going to name the examples of course. She said my eldest brother is too emotional so he might humble himself just to accommodate others. Whereas my second brother is too sociable where he might end up in and endless cycle of partying and fun if his friends asked him too.
Heh, I don't know how true it is but in any case, I have to really moderate my gaming time and spend more time doing what i need to do to prepare for Australia. There seems to be so many things which i seem to be putting off & I think it's really a waste of time for myself if keep doing so. Well enough of this.
To Dad,
It's already been 1 year that you departed from us but we are still going strong despite of your absence. Many a times, I know that you saw me as the mirror image of yourself when you were young. That's why you always wanted me to succeed more than any of the other siblings or at least you believed that i would exceed my brothers in the future. Well, I don't know for how the future would end up, but at least I know that I will find my path in time & when that happens, hopefully, I can fulfill your expectations that you have had of me.
May i inherit the good traits that you had & not your bad traits.
Faithfulness to Wife, Loyal friend, Provider & Die-hard attitude.
Your faults i keep to myself to remind me what I should not become & my faults, I wish i had a mirror to reflect my own faults to try to correct them.
Wherever you are, be it in the heavenly kingdom or you being reincarnated, Dad, I wish you a happy and blissful life.
I will have the strength & will to put whatever I have written into actions. This i promise you.
In remembrance of my Dad.
Your Son,
Shangzhao.
Was stoning in office for the last hour today. Just suddenly felt overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions. I guess it was a multitude of factors ba...it's my dad's 1 year anniversary today (well according to the Chinese calendar anyway), some in the past stuff which i probably shouldn't have mentioned or kept thinking about, impending departure to Australia, this damnned sore throat which refuses to heal & the leaving behind of the people who shared the 22 years of my life in Singapore :).
Haha...it's kind of hard to leave all this behind..& listening to Sammi Cheng's 最后一次 now is just kinda snowballing the emotions at hand as I'm writing this entry. Mom just told me that my second brother asked if she was assured with me going overseas all by myself. Surprisingly she actually said she was very comfortable with me going, just worried that i might like the computer game addiction get to me and get in the way of my studies.
She actually told me that I'm the one she's most comfortable with me going overseas all alone because she believes that I believe in only doing things that i think are right. If someone tries to persuade me in doing something which i think it's not right, I never end up following. I hadn't thought about this before and thinking back it's really true. I'm not going to name the examples of course. She said my eldest brother is too emotional so he might humble himself just to accommodate others. Whereas my second brother is too sociable where he might end up in and endless cycle of partying and fun if his friends asked him too.
Heh, I don't know how true it is but in any case, I have to really moderate my gaming time and spend more time doing what i need to do to prepare for Australia. There seems to be so many things which i seem to be putting off & I think it's really a waste of time for myself if keep doing so. Well enough of this.
To Dad,
It's already been 1 year that you departed from us but we are still going strong despite of your absence. Many a times, I know that you saw me as the mirror image of yourself when you were young. That's why you always wanted me to succeed more than any of the other siblings or at least you believed that i would exceed my brothers in the future. Well, I don't know for how the future would end up, but at least I know that I will find my path in time & when that happens, hopefully, I can fulfill your expectations that you have had of me.
May i inherit the good traits that you had & not your bad traits.
Faithfulness to Wife, Loyal friend, Provider & Die-hard attitude.
Your faults i keep to myself to remind me what I should not become & my faults, I wish i had a mirror to reflect my own faults to try to correct them.
Wherever you are, be it in the heavenly kingdom or you being reincarnated, Dad, I wish you a happy and blissful life.
I will have the strength & will to put whatever I have written into actions. This i promise you.
In remembrance of my Dad.
Your Son,
Shangzhao.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Stress is piling
Hmm..it's been really a while since i stopped blogging. 2 whole months :) Hahaha well i guess no one will know i updated this blog anyway..except for...the guy whose mom makes bitter gourd soup that is not bitter at all LOL!!!
Anyway, it seems that i'm getting more tense these days. Feels like the pressure of the impending overseas studies. I'm on this alone and it's really total independence. I sure am not used to being that independent. I like to rely on people for help..but it doesn't seem to be the case when i first go there. I hope a little anxiety is common in all the students going overseas..hopefully i will meet someone who can help me settle down quickly...and get me focused on what i need to do.
3 years in Australia, and if i do well..i shall try for masters instead of Honors since it's just an additional half more year than Honors. Should there be a company that wishes to hire me, I'll probably work there. If not then I'll be coming back if there are no Australian companies that offer me a job. However, the thought of really leaving Singapore forever is pretty haunting. I'll be leaving everything behind if i do make that decision. Mostly, it's my family, especially my mom & the great friends that I've made over the course of my student life. Just 4 more months getting closer to 3 months. Time is winding down.
Here goes nothing.
Anyway, it seems that i'm getting more tense these days. Feels like the pressure of the impending overseas studies. I'm on this alone and it's really total independence. I sure am not used to being that independent. I like to rely on people for help..but it doesn't seem to be the case when i first go there. I hope a little anxiety is common in all the students going overseas..hopefully i will meet someone who can help me settle down quickly...and get me focused on what i need to do.
3 years in Australia, and if i do well..i shall try for masters instead of Honors since it's just an additional half more year than Honors. Should there be a company that wishes to hire me, I'll probably work there. If not then I'll be coming back if there are no Australian companies that offer me a job. However, the thought of really leaving Singapore forever is pretty haunting. I'll be leaving everything behind if i do make that decision. Mostly, it's my family, especially my mom & the great friends that I've made over the course of my student life. Just 4 more months getting closer to 3 months. Time is winding down.
Here goes nothing.
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