So basically there's nothing much new because i've been going home after work and not going out and also staying at home on the weekends. Ha..that's totally lame i know. I'm in a foreign country and yet i stay at home might as well just stay in sg right? Ah...well with this cold weather i don't like going out when i can be in the comfort of my room and watching videos..sounds pretty no life and well not educational at all but still...

Anyway just 3 days ago kinda felt ill i guess..was shivering like mad but it wasnt supposed to be like that. Went home to sleep and felt like fudge when i woke up. Vomitting sensation coupled with dizzines, made it impossible for me to even wait for the water dispenser to dispense water. Though i was thirsting like a lost soul in the desert, i couldn't focus and had to lie down again. Took off from work for a bountiful rest and boy it sure helped. Maybe i had some viral infection cause i sure didn't have any fever or whatsoever ah well it's over and i'm all right.

Winter's definitely coming. The rapid drop in temperature is a clear indicator for sure.

Sigh calling home and being reminded of how stupid u can be is fudging sad especially when i havent called in 2 weeks ah well, i deserved it anyway.

Learning learning learning. That's all i hear from my parents. Learn what though..good question i should start thinking about it.

Recently i've been lapsing in concentration. Don't know what's wrong though. Maybe i've been overplaying games and watching videos my brain isn't working hard sigh...i just hate it.

Life,
what is it?
Isn't being happy all that matters?
Why do you need to be successful or learned to be happy?
Doesn't anyone understand that simpliness gives you happiness just the same?
Why can't people see my point of view too?
Don't we all make mistakes?
Don't my parents make mistakes?
Yet, i take the blame.
Suffering and never benefitting
What have i benefitted?
Have i even won anything before?
Of course, it all boils down to my incompetence.
But why then, am i forced to suffer so much.
Did i do something wrong in my previous life?
Or is it just due to my own incompetence that suffering begins.
I guess it's my incompetence.
If my Karma is going to suck even more, come on bring it on.
What else can u take from a person who has nothing?
My life? Yeah, might as well.
It's the only valuable thing i have left.