Bahh did only 7 pullups for ippt couldn't reach my 8 which i pulled i was able to pull few days back..but nvm...since i was training for my pullups it was natural my muscles havent totally recovered. Anyway stayed on saturday to do RT while those buggers who passed got to book out early...and i stayed cos of 4 cm for sbj wtf..my technique really needs working..but it's also OTOT time for gym. I need to do the leg press to up my leg power. My aim now is to jump a silver grade for SBJ and a gold grade for pullups which is 12 by the end of BMT. I can do it!! It's just 4 more for pullups and around 20 cm for sbj...hmm

如果我能看得見

就能輕易的分辨白天黑夜

就能準確的在人群中牽住你的手

如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样
眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮了帘
忘了掀开
你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界就在我眼前

Everytime i listen to to this song, i feel that somehow i should have done something instead of waiting for a sign. Still i love this song :D

Aiming to go OCS or at least SISPEC doesn't seem to be working well for me..i keep screwing up by making new mistakes...correcting the old ones i make i make new ones again..it's getting tiring as i want to prove myself but yet at the same time i don't have the ability to make it happen...well whatever it is. I have lots of learning to do..regardless of what people say about me i will push forward and keep improving..i may start at ground zero now but if i slowly move from ground zero instead of remaining there, slowly but surely i'll improve.

Eyes that see but are blind.
Ears that hear but are deaf.
Mind that works but does not think.

No one is going to get me down..and whatever shit that gets thrown back at me, i'll keep moving forward.

Like finally i have the feel to blog..probably since i don't get the touch the comp like 24 hours a day..and i'm suffering from some computer withdrawal symptoms and one of them is the urge to blog wahaha.

Okay firstly one most important thing I HAVE NOT FALLEN SICK YET IN ARMY WOOHOO! This could be due to sleeping very early and not bathing at like 1-2 am in the morning...well some people do that and don't get sick but that's probably cause they have a better constituition than me.

Although i did a stupid thing like kicking my own toe onto the bed and was out for 3 days of training. Sitting at the side you'd feel like shit cause you'd rather be doing the PT instead of sitting down and doing nothing. Well in any case i don't want to miss any PT lessons so please no more injuries and falling sick.

Time in army really flies exactly like how one of the officers said. Just blink blink and a few weeks will pass by..and behold, this is my 2nd book out. However, I'm not really going out cause nothing much for me to do and stuff like playing pool does not interests me at all since all i want is to eat good food but unfortunately i've sworn off supper..so that means i only eat 3 meals a day period.

Army life isn't that bad except you can feel yourself becoming stupid by the minute cause all you do is to just echo out the last few words lol. Kanna tekaned also not that bad cause everyone gets tekaned with you but of course don't be the black sheep that always causes people to kanna tekaned your life will not be good. Also, you'll be disconnected from the outside world like i only just knew like 1 week ago about the AIG incident and that's cause my army buddy's girlfriend told him about it which he relayed to me.

Aim at the end of BMT is to get at least a Silver for IPPT. Achievable.

Hmm can't think of anything else to update but hopefully i can update more soon.