Aiming to go OCS or at least SISPEC doesn't seem to be working well for me..i keep screwing up by making new mistakes...correcting the old ones i make i make new ones again..it's getting tiring as i want to prove myself but yet at the same time i don't have the ability to make it happen...well whatever it is. I have lots of learning to do..regardless of what people say about me i will push forward and keep improving..i may start at ground zero now but if i slowly move from ground zero instead of remaining there, slowly but surely i'll improve.

Eyes that see but are blind.
Ears that hear but are deaf.
Mind that works but does not think.

No one is going to get me down..and whatever shit that gets thrown back at me, i'll keep moving forward.