Okay the holidays have gone wayyyyy too fast...why can't it be longer!! Grr! Anyway an uneventful weekend helping out with family chores(okay well not alot :P) Accompanied my mom for a walk and chit-chat after a meal(I should do that more often), visited relatives and basically slacked at home. Besides no one asked me out so i'm entitled to be a hermit :D

Feb 1st is the start of the entries to universities..i don't think i can get in but i'll try again until my ORD. If not, i think i'll take up the australian universities scholarships and study overseas. Heh..might be expensive but i'm willing to take up a loan for a better education. I just hope everything goes well...then again hugging a koala bear isn't such a bad idea either :P

It sure gets to me when i'm the only single one in the family and it just slaps right into my face during family gatherings where my brothers bring my girlfriends and i'm the lone guy. Haha..you'll start feeling quite empty but then again it disappears after a period of time. Maybe i'll end up like my SISPEC SGT who's still single at 26! Living an independent life and it's not that bad..if i really do end up in australia, i won't feel like i'm abandoning my gf if i even manage to find one hahaha!

Okay...wanderer + grandslam till saturday! Outfield all the way! I should be back by saturday for dinner..i hope..

SZ Signing out.

Shagged like mad this week..it was really busy without much sleep. Let's just this week kinda sucked but i think next week will be worse! Oh well i can only just suck thumb. Then today just had ippt..ahh crap 221cm..like hell but i managed to do 12 pullups today think i could have pushed for 13 but nevermind i'll try next time :D

Later going for supper hope i don't fall sick..god damnned week...it's going to be shitty from now on...and i'm going to book out only on saturdays cause there's lessons on 7th feb and 14th feb then pass out...Argh..

SZ is SIANDED

Whew...field camp was a breeze compared to tekong's. There wasn't any tekan and i didn't have to get dirty. It was just pure bliss. Just eating and doing FCO, it's a wonder i didn't get fat during field camp. Anyway glad that's over.

So i might get selected for CBRE after my SISPEC life..i hope it gets through though! That extra 300 dollars is mightily tempting. Besides the fact that it's probably a dangerous vocation still, i believe my life still has a long way to go so nothing will happen :D I did screw up at the puzzle part though..grr..was quite disappointed after that last part..oh well..hope it doesn't kill my chances.

Bought my first pair of onitzuka tiger shoe. I quite like it :) It's a little expensive but it's comfortable and i think if i maintain it, it'll last for a long time. Hope to get my second pair soon but that's only when i get my CBRE vocation :D

IPOD Touch 16gb will be in waiting! I need to save up!!

Game time has been cut very short as i'm making an effort to go out with friends and family which is a good sign! CNY is coming!! And i might be booking out on friday afternoon! So time to enjoy!!!

All right..time to get lost in the forest this week! Navigation here i come!

SZ nothing else!

Went alone for to NTUC to buy things for army but decided to help my mom buy some groceries too since i was going anyway. First time picking fruits...the agony...i don't even know if i picked ripe and good fruits..oh well i can only hope it's good. Still it was a pretty enjoyable experience :D And i quite like it..hmm maybe next time i can go and buy groceries for my mom when i have time.

It's good training for myself too since when i'm older i definitely need to buy my own groceries Haha!

Ah...it's been a hectic week for me...wednesday to saturday barely 6 hours each day. Night training till 9 plus and sleeping at 11 plus 12 plus at times. So you can say i'm pretty shagged out but since there's virtually nil amount of tekan, i feel that life here is still much much better than in tekong. Besides there's more freedom to do the stuff you want, like going to the canteen :D Use your initiative!

And tomorrow's my field camp well at least it ends on thursday..soo not that bad yah? In the meantime SZ is going to be uncontactable during those 4 days. Let's see how SISPEC's field camp is like compared to BMT's field camp.

Haha and i'm going to forget about the past and keep moving forward. I can't be there for everyone. There's a limit to how much care and concern i can give. So, SZ shall stop and do what he is supposed to do within the boundaries. Reflecting on your past mistakes is a double edged sword. For it helps to motivate you to prevent it from happening again or it makes you regret making the mistake and making you feel emotional every single time.

I should start living for myself instead but that doesn't mean i will become self conceited. It's more of doing the things i love and making myself happy. I have a right to choose what i can or cannot do, don't I? :)

退一步海阔天空。

SZ signing off.

Ahhhh!!! I want to get my silver so i don't have to stay for CT man!! Stupid sbj! just jump 5 more cm man!! And why did my left leg had to be so back when i jumped the first time. That would have been 225cm! Stupid stupid stupid! Oh well. Nothing like staying back on saturdays and keeping fit right? Haha..although i've been eating quite a fair bit these 2 days..i don't think the exercise is gonna help me Hahaha!

Hopefully today's the last of the spring cleaning session for my family...i want to go out on sundays or at least be able to slack all the way!! The feeling of booking in is sooo sucky i need to get my mind off it.

Oh well, 6 more days to bookout. Guess training is going to up in tempo. I must be mentally prepared!

First of Happy New Year's guys..we're all turning 21 soon. That means we'll be young adults this year! Yeah! No more parental control! Haha.

Anyway, decided to edit this post since i wrote very little. Shagged when i was writing this blog! 3.30 am then sleep and waking up after like only 6 hours of sleep was definitely not enough for me to write a post on my blog. Don't know why but recently i've just been feeling like something's missing..maybe i'm not having enough time with friends to keep myself occupied. Feeling empty when i'm alone. The shadow of JJ's death seems to upset me subconciously without me knowing but i know with time, i'll slowly forget it and then i'll be me again :).
All right for this year, i want to learn some new skill like maybe baking? Since you can do it yourself. I'll probably get a beginner's recipes book to bake. Heh that would be fun. In the meantime, i'm going Queensway shopping centre this Saturday (I hope) for chinese new year shopping! I want to buy some shoes and belt man. Borrowing from my siblings their belts sure seems to be quite lame. And i'll probably get another jeans if i have the money. Spend Spend Spend.

Anyway, been thinking of adopting the dogs at S.P.C.A ever since i've went there..it's been somewhere at the back of my mind nagging me to adopt one. I feel i should but i've got no time in army. If i were to adopt i don't think i can trust my second brother to take care of it and my maid is too busy to take care of it much. Ah..nevermind..i'll wait till i pass out from SISPEC and see how things go. That's till feburary and hopefully after that i get to some slack unit that allows me time to take care of it. Then i'll show my parents that i'm ready to take on the responsibility for the pet. It's time they trusted me! And i want to show them.

Darn, King's bounty the legend is highly addictive...i don't think i'll need to buy any games until i'm actually completed with it. Hours just pass by and i didn't even feel it. It's like an rpg HOMM style kind of game and it's so much more fun than HOMM. HOMM in my opinion was fun at the starting but as the game progressed, it got quite boring, since most of the time u ended up hoarding ur army in preparation for the ultimate attack. Whereas for King's bounty, you can explore the map and engage in its sidequests which is damn absorbing. Without a doubt if i could rate a game as GOTY, King's bounty would win thumbs down. No fight. Still i think people would rather get games like FO3 which is blasphemous to the original fallouts and calling it GOTY. They are saying it's a RPG but seeing the game itself, i think it fails as an rpg compared to the original fallouts. Oh well, money makes the world go round and reviewers have no qualms about betraying their souls for their livelihood.

Dah dah dah...hope i make it through another year. Enjoy myself as best as i can! Maybe some good things will come out from this year heh! Looking forward to it. Also, it's the year i turn 21...hmm a birthday party..should i or should i not hold it? I'll think about it.

Thinking of creating my gaming blog now. At least i have an avenue to keep writing and not let my english languish into the darkness. The standard is certainly dropping beyond reason. Hopefully, i'll try to improve my vocab in order to write better. Stay tuned this saturday for my first post.

SZ logging out.