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Argh!! Kanna extra for not locking my locker! Suay suay i forgot to lock on friday in the morning and suay suay that day sgt check..1 X extra..oh well.. i just have to take it!

So mom's leaving on the 7th of march and of course i'm sending her there haha!! Also asked her to let me take care of some of the stuff she does like grocery shopping and money matters. Well hopefully i'll be able to take on the role well and improve a little as a person. Hehe I need to mature sooner since i'm most likely going Australia for my education and i need to be more independent.

Haha tomorrow's my birthday!! Happy 21st and cheerios to my adulthood!

Sz signing out!

Haha well in my free time flipped through this so called article by a journalist about his nice guy friend who doesn't have a gf yet(that's not the important thing) but rather the next thing which was kind of weird. His 2 female friends who are having boyfriends that cheated or are still cheating on them yet they contemplate marriage with these guys stating reasons like they hope their boyfriends can change. Well, i don't think that's possible since they have already done that multiple times. You can always think that maybe during marriage they might stop but how sure are you? And what makes these girls continue having hope and not leaving their bad boyfriends? Even recent news, a girl can stand her abusive boyfriend for a year even before leaving him in hopes he will stop abusing her and become less possessive (he apparently restricted all contact with guys for the gf). They had some term for that abuse..hmm damn it can't remember now!

The old phrase (Nan Ren Bu Huai, Nu Ren Bu Ai) comes into place here. But that is definitely not in the case course i'm sure there are girls still who find nice guys to be with well considering my 2 army buddies haha they are the nice guys with i hope good girlfriends haha.

But it could be something about Singapore's society. We are to used too our comfort zone(me being one of them of course). And that could be at least one of the reasons i can think about it now. I mean one of my army friends has this female friend who has this bad boyfriend who obviously doesn't treat her very well but she sticks by him. The reason she gave my friend? She's comfortable with him or rather in a sense that it's been a long time and she refuses to change and move on.

Women, the mysterious creatures of earth.

Haha I should take note of the thing called comfort zone and take risks when i should. Of course after careful calculation first haha! Same goes for my police job. Trying something i'm not familiar with at all is risky but is worth it for fulfiling my childhood dream? When i put on the Military police badge i'm already fulfiled with a sense of pride! Haha..what more a real police one heh.

All right, 21st bdae here u come

SZ has 3 more hours to book in after his extended MC! :P

Ah..damn shitty rotted my whole weekend away. MC extended till tomorrow as i still don't feel fighting fit at all. Constant heavy headache which totally sucks. Bah and i am missing 2 days of lessons damn fucked up.

The plus side is that it's reaching my bdae soon so! Can't wait for saturday. Time to talk to some of my pri/sec school and JC friends hehe! Catching up with a few of them will be not bad

Ah bloody sore throat thus inducing my fever. Don't know why i have inflammation of my throat but it sucks...hope i feel better tomorrow to not take MC. I don't want to OOC from MP. They said the most is 5 days of ATTNC. Argh! Maybe i should have tried sleeping more after 28km route march. Slept only like less than 12 hours for 3 days...i don't think that was good for my health.

Anyway, alot of things can't be said about life in MP but i hope i learn loads from MP! It is also partially introducing some kind of police work to me :)

Also, MP gives me the pride of being one and i love the song :D
I don't think i can post the lyrics online haha! Oh well

Pride, Discipline, Honour

MPT Xie signing out

Whew..after 28km march didn't sleep and went to Christine's 21st bdae party. Didn't really get to talk to her much when her good friends came! Nevermind at least i got to see her since i havent seen her for a while. Kok Rui and Eugene too haha! It's always good to meet my old friends! Anyway, going to her 21st bdae makes me think; do i want to celebrate mine too?

It's quite a hassle to organise one isn't it? I should just celebrate with my closer friends right? Stay tuned for any news of me organising one!

Whew, tomorrow's the book in day and i have to wake up at 0530! It's already 2250 and i'm still awake and have not taken a bath yet! Hahaha! I'm quite excited to get into MP! I don't care if people think it's a slack vocation or not! It's what i want to do..unless i get into the sucky vocation which is the drill squad..i think i'll suck thumb for the rest of my life till i ROD

Though it quite sucks because i'm supposed to meet my SISPEC section mates for kuishinbo tomorrow and i have to book in!!! And it'll be my first time eating at there if i could go! I hope we can book out! PLEASE!!

Unspoken words kept in the corners of your heart,
they become part of you,
but they do not eat into you.

That is how it should be.
For memories are but for remembrance,
that's all.

Anchoring in it just brings more sorrows,
but neither should it influence your actions.

The friendship that can only reach so far.
It can't go back to what it was.
This I must understand.

Letting go, Difficult? Yes.
Achievable? Yes

Wake up!
Your family, friends and the world is waiting for you.
With them, i'll never walk alone.

With that, SZ signing out

Whew..the sispec phase of my life has passed...28km march was horrendously tiring now i have blisters on my feet..oh well! I managed to push myself to 28km when i only marched 16km previously :D That's quite an achievement i think. And besides that i finally passed my SOC hahaha! Woot!

Section 4 I'll miss you guys man, the tears from one of my section mate made me feel that he would try his best to keep in contact and organise outings for us..this is what i hope..because it's always sad to see my section mates disappear from me.

Anyway my new posting is out...i'm going to MP! Well i didn't get into CBRE..that's just a pay thing but frankly i've always wanted to go MP! At least i can experience some police life. I've already told myself if somehow i managed to get into MP, i'll take my consideration to be a police officer when i'm done with my studies seriously :D! Let's hope for all the best! In the meantime, Monday to book in and enjoy a new start!

So that's another week gone and my SISPEC life is coming to an end. On saturday i'll know my posting..let's hope it's a good vocation. Nothing much over the week it was quite relaxed i think haha except SOC failed by 46 seconds damn it...i have got to run faster! The good thing was that i could finally clear low rope so it isn't so bad! This wednesday i shall try to conquer it which reminds me i have to bring my stopwatch inside camp to time myself for the run.

I'm going to miss my old section mates...but that's the sucky part right? I hardly contact my old section mates liao cause it's too busy for them..imagine 5 OCS it's really hard to coordinate outings bah...

Anyway enjoyed my this weekend, went to meet my old secondary school friends and at night supper with the close poly friends ahh..it seems i'm able to tahan tiredness more often now. The power of SISPEC haha!

Ahh..some things happened this week which got me thinking...but then i should just keep my mouth shut ba. Forget things, live my life and move on :)

Mommy is going for meditation retreat for 2 weeks..then in march she's going for 3 months...i'll miss her but when she's gone, i can take over grocery shopping :) Which will be quite fun.

Heh...and about uni i think i can only try for these 2 years after that probably try for Australia's uni..i hope i don't have to study there though it is effing expensive..but there's not much of a better choice right?

Heh all well, i'm going to stop thinking about all those stuffs and just enjoy the present for now! 28km march here i come!

SZ Out!

Whew!!! Finally..all the tough major events are over..the rest should be a piece of cake! Yeah! 2 more weeks to passout..let's see where i go shall we...if ASLC then..good luck to me. I'll miss my BSLC section mates...speaking of which i haven't met my old section mates yet..must find time!

Anyway, Grandslam wasn't that bad just that the marching was quite chui haha can't say what i did there anyway if not i might get the attention of certain military personnel.

Didn't go out this week except to buy grocery stuff. Of course my main aim was to buy my own tidbits but nevertheless helping my family buy groceries is quite a nice feeling :D.

Gonna book in soon..don't have much to write this week..maybe i'll finally meet up with Joshua on saturday..it's been a longgg time secondary school buddy! It's been like 2 months since we met up!

Sz signing out