Haha sad friday..booked out late and i made some mistakes that probably lowered the trust rating from my upperstudy..ah...nevermind we all make mistakes right...i just need to learn from them. I'm not superhuman and don't have superhuman memory..sometimes things just slip my mind!

Haha anyway didn't do much this weekend! Basically went to meet few of my MP friends for dinner and after that minds cafe and bowling. Nothing much haha. Today spent my whole afternoon taking a nap *oink* *oink* Weee. I'll probably go running after this post. Once per week..is quite bad...so is my gym..but anyway i wasn't feeling well this week..stupid flu.

Anyway, been listening to jay chou's 退后 haha the lyrics are quite meaningful i feel.

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后
並沒有更自由
酸酸的空氣
嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
榨乾了回憶
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去
被順時針的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待續

Haha isn't it true that sometimes even if you really love someone, it's better to part ways at times because you guys are just unhappy with each other. Love can't last without having 2 hands to clap. There must be giving and taking because in the long run, the other party will feel unappreciated if he/she is giving in too much. For instance you have to keep accompanying your boyfriend to do something that you hate and he doesn't care about forcing you to accompany him or that she enjoys shopping and you absolutely hate shopping but she wants you to accompany her all the time. That will make you resentful won't it and this is in sync with problem no. 2.

Compatiability issues are also part of the problems. For instance, you can have a simple girl and a guy who has huge ambitions and wants to be somebody. This scenario is okay if the guy is loving towards her and does not become selfish in his quest to be somebody. Or if you're the simple girl, you must try to understand that sometimes he'll be very busy as he wants to chase his dreams...so you'll have to stand by the sidelines and wait for him to come back instead of resenting him for abandoning you at times! Also, if you guys don't share any common interests that can connect you then it's very hard to maintain it isn't it? There's nothing to gel you guys together and in the long-run it's potentially disastrous. No matter how much they say opposite attracts, i feel that you can have different personalities but you must share something together because it makes you enjoy each other's company.

Communication(haha i don't know whether i can do this if i'm in a relationship because sometimes i just like to keep the bad feelings festering) is important i would say unless the girl/guy likes to play mind games..then i can tell you it'll be damn annoying. But communication helps to work out the small problems from snowballing into big problems that'll cause you resentment. A bushfire not put out quickly is turned into wildfire, isn't that even worse? So don't ignore the small problems that arise.
A final point for girls alone...please don't go back to a fucking idiot who cheats on you. Get out of the safety zone and get the courage to step out of it. I don't know what's the reason for wanting to keep things stable. You're hurt and unhappy and you'll feel that you have no idea what to trust anymore. A sense of security is what makes you know you can depend on the person. If it's gone..haha i would say it would be truly gone. And guys who cheat just don't cheat once do they. They can say all kinds of sweet words like they "love" you still, they will change, it's just a one time thing. Please give me a chance etc etc and your heart will just soften. But still there's also the other side where the relationship is already on the downslope and you have to identify that unless it really was just temptation then...please don't do the stupid thing of forgiving..that i feel, you have not learnt your lesson. Heck if my gf was cheating damn..i have to talk to her about it first and see what's the problem if it's just cause of temptation then..i might be prone to just make the hard decision..i know it's never easy and it's all theory-wise until i am in the situation...so it's just my thoughts for now haha. Haha just to name a few points..i'm sure there are a thousands of reasons why relationships don't or do work..but i'm not Mr Love Guru or anything... this is just to all those lovers out there to ponder on keke.

This friday mini biathlon haha..350 m swim and 5km run...arrow everywhere from CSM. He's like a red indian chief. Shooting arrows all the time and does nothing for us except disappear after shooting us with arrows.

SZ is late for run and is doomed for the mini biathlon! Wahaha..3 more hours to book in...dang!