Haha..great what a wonderful present to a less hectic week. Fever. Outstanding. Just gets me all fuzzy. Slept away friday with a temperature of 38.6. Surprisingly after that i recovered..probably my temperature is around 37.5 now still it's amazing how much sleep works on me. Not requiring medicine but just plain ol barley and rest haha.

Missed kendrick's bdae party, feel bad considering he went for my 21st party..but..i don't want to spread germs to him and his friends so it's not a good thing to go.

Tomorrow's tennis day..i wonder if i'm all right enough to make it haha..let's see if yingx will get pissed off :D.

Monday's 12 HR guard duty..thinking of getting half day off in the morning to rest somemore then do guard duty let's see how it goes.

First time ice skating last week...i'm a clumsy klutz haha what can i say? I never was athletic to begin with heh but i will probably slowly learn how to ice skate with help! Help please?

Sometimes i wished i can look into people's minds and know what they are thinking haha. It always gets me thinking if i say the wrong things all the time. Maybe i'm just not tactful enough. Offending people unknowingly. Or maybe i just have poor communication skills ha...but it's also impossible to please everyone. I don't mind getting misunderstood. Especially as a Spec, i can't please everyone. People can say what they want but i'll carry on....

My brother just got a hamster haha a very cute little thing but there's only one i think he should get another one. It looks kinda lonely abit like me? All alone without a friend or companion. I'm trying to get him to crawl into my hand but apparently he doesn't wish too. Maybe he needs time to get used to my smell haha..or i'm doing things wrong? Maybe i don't have any attractiveness, be it physical appearance, charisma or inner beauty to let it feel comfortable enough to trust me. Whatever it is, it needs time..like many things in life. It takes time.

Life is never smooth sailing, when you're overjoyed with it, it'll come crashing down upon you. So maybe i shouldn't feel happy or sad when good or bad things happen to me. Just take it neutrally. That way i won't be disappointed or overly sad when events unfold...heh but it isn't easy...we're controlled by our emotions haha by being detached from them can we feel joy eh...ahh..watch me blabber on. I shall stop this downward spiral just because of one continuous event for the past week. It's not healthy.

SZ needs to stop being self delusional and continue on with his journey.