Wahaha i'm officially bloodless as i can't find any records of my blood group. No wonder mel says i'm so sickening. Oh well. I'll leave my blood group blank on the form then. Doubt it's important anyway.

Wahaha slept like a pig today. Woke up at 12 play comp till 1.30 then eat lunch and watch tv till 2.45. Took a nap for an hour then woke up to go learn driving. Today was a new instructor. Wah he was big man but he sure can drive. He taught me quite some stuff today. I'm quite impressed. He scolded some people today. The drivers as i was only a learner and those people didnt give way to me even though i had the right of way. Hahaa well today drove quite badly at some parts but quite good at some parts so yeah..hopefully can put it to use tomorrow. Calm and composed i must be to drive properly. If i worry too much end up drive badly instead.

Anyway was lazying about again watched tv from 8 to 10. Haha now channel 55 got this new show. Wo De Ye man nai nai. Super funny and interesting. Especially the part where the main character's wife likes his alter identity. Wahaha.. must watch show

Going off to sleep now!! Nitez!

Fucking pissed

Gosh i'm bloody pissed off right now. I took the day off to rest as i'm starting to recover from my food poisoning but guess what my dad is bringing me forcefully to a fucking banquet. Yeah a fucking banquet you heard it. I skipped iDARE, the bbq and everything all for the sake of my health but my dad is bringing me to my aunt's birthday. I already told him my stomach can't tolerate such food yet as i'm just recovering so obviously its a hint that i don't want to go but obviously he just forces me to go. I wish my mom was here she'll ask me to rest or my dad might not even ask me cause he'll ask my mom along. I'm fking annoyed right now. I told my maid to cook porridge and stuff for me and my dad says no need so i explained i need some light, healthier food to eat. Guess what he told me? Banquet food also has healthy food like the veggies? I'm like WTF here? To all the countless banquets i've been too none of the dishes are healthy. The veggies are always laden with thick sauces how is that possible for it to be healthy? As my brothers have exam tomorrow he asked them to take chicken esscense then he asked me to take too. I was like are you nuts? I just recovered from food poisoning and u ask me to take this sort of food. He just said well you're recovered. Oh yeah visually i'm looking all right but i'm definitely not totally recovered. I'm still feeling dizzy. Gosh i'm seriouslly pissed off.

Sorry about the vulgarities but i'm really fed up now. This is total crap. I'm out

Irritated

Don't feel like talking to anyone for the past few days. Didn't go to school on friday and missed lectures, great i'm dead again. Had food poisoning since thursday. Confirmed food poisoning after seeing the doctor on friday. Yep..been having diarrhoea, nausea and fever for the past few days. I'm still feeling bloody uncomfortable. Stomach hurts badly. Super irritated. Can't do anything except sleep and rest. Feeling tired again though i rested the whole day. Work is just piling up but i don't have the mood to do. Gosh i'm never eating at galileo again. Stupid cafe.

Woosh.. Josh's birthday is over. Well after my STUPID 45 minute lesson for EAA i went to josh's house for the first time. Haha too bad i never got to see his sister. She was sleeping soundly after mugging. Only heard her voice over the phone before but ah oh well. Passed him his first present haha a ralph lauren polo tee. Nice! Anyway his home's comp is super ancient. I don't even think you can see the components in his comp being manufactured anymore. His comp can lag when we're playing METAL SLUG 3. Yes you heard it right metal slug 3. No its not oblivion, nor is it Crysis the upcoming graphics intensive game. It's a 2d shooter game that doesn't even lag on my laptop. Time for an upgrade josh. Wait till the 1st quarter of 2007 is gone. Get windows vista Nvidia 8800 ( i think one's enough) and the quad core. Motherboard and the rest use ur judgement la..but the good motherboard now should be asus something i forgot the number.

Anyway lappy called and we proceeded to go bowling at marina. HA and i got owned like totally. Lappy is like a natural at it la. First time playing he gets 150+ pts. Ultimate madness. What's more i was holding the ball wrongly throughout. Used the wrong fingers haha!! Anyway went to eat dinner after that. I got "niaoed" by them for suggesting to go toa payoh to eat. Haha cos they both stay at tp so they're kinda bored of the food there. I love tp food and no i don't eat at food courts unless my friends ask me too. I love hawker fare..but i seldom get to visit hawker centres now. We went to the big food court to eat. Amazing how the woman can slice the egg till it's so thin. I mean you have to admire the effort they put in to being so stingy. At least the chicken was good and big if not i'm going to cry murder.
We went back tp and played arcade and that was the end. Took bus home with josh and he hinted at the supposedly chio girl in the bus and amazingly she stopped at the same bus stop as me. She walked the left lane though argh..different lanes oh well..i didn't get to see her face properly anyway. She was too far away from me in the bus.

There's been 3 kittens being born by the stray cats recently and their like SUPER CUTE! Especially the kitten with the white fur and black spots. It's the cutest. Apparently they always like to come our house to drink from the outdoor fishpool. Yucks maybe the water has aromatic fish smell..who knows? The water is so green from the algae i pity the fishes living inside. What's more my dad keeps buying more fish to put inside. Sheer murder haha.




ARRGH STUPID ADAPTOR!! Gosh my laptop's adaptor just died on me partially. At first i thought it was spoilt but actually its working if u know how to put it at a certain angle then it works fine. ERRGH IF I HAD MONEY NOW!! I would gladly go buy a new adaptor. Annoying little machine.

Anyway been feeling really tired recently, think its my flu making me tired. Almost fell asleep in class today. Errgh..never mind weekend is coming so will be sleeping like a pig soon. Although i've been eating like a pig today. For lunch, i ate one bowl of fish slice noodles then i went to buy yam pao and lor mai kai. Ultimate pigness. Then had snack of tutu kueh and muah chee. Goodness. After that eating spree, i went for BA CARES HOUR. Was freezing inside especially at the ending where this successful ex ngee ann student shared her feelings and success stories blah blah. I mean towards the end it kind of drifted off topic and it was more like advertising her cd and book la. Well anyway i'm confirm going thailand as i've been wanting to go SERVE TRIP SINCE YR 1!! Hopefully i'll get into the team in the meantime i'll just have to pray hard =)

Just had heavy dinner at 7.30 and now i'm feeling hungry again gosh..i'm growing to be a fat boy soon enough. Tomorrow going vivo to shop for preglow stuff and having dinner. Watch the $$$ fly =D All right See ya!

WHEE!!! FINALLY! PASSED MY FINAL THEORY ON SATURDAY GOSH!! Nerve wrecking experience man. Considering i didn't even study for my final theory. Errgh luckily i prayed before i went out for the exam. After i finished my paper, i was flipping back to make changes. Should some have wrong as i counted 7 which i'm not clear of and one question i changed the answer. That change might have caused me to pass who knows? I would like to think i just passed by the border line but who cares? I PASSED THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!! IT was super irritating la...all the guys beside me and opposite me which i could see their screens had PASSED grade then i was like omg omg..how if i fail so malu la..but well in the end i passed too haha!!! It was super funny when i look back and think what i did in the room. I just breathed a sigh of relief and put my hand onto my chest when i saw the PASSED grade ahha!! I think the examiner saw it too and she smiled at me when i left the room. I smiled back naturally haha!!

After that friend asked me to watch casino royale but i lazy la..already on my way home when he called lol. Go out again super sianz. Maybe next time then watch la haha

Finally my module 1 got completed. Landed back up with my first instructor haha. He keep reminding me stuff etc but i think i performed better today than usual as i was comfortable with him. He kept making me laugh throughout the ride la haha. His right about one thing though i very blur. Hope i dun crash into people when i'm on the road next time!! Getting started on module 2 next week..i'm slow BUT WHO CARES!! I'll take slower for sure but everyone has different learning speeds so why bother. Just learn what i can learn possibly.

Tmr's josh birthday but being guys there won't be any cake la..we just go out hang out ba. Anyway we're going bowling for the first time, usually we just play pool. Bowling's so exp but aiya forget it once a yr event haha and its the FIRST so called celebration we're doing for him haha so well yeah don't care la.

Can go learn first aid soon le since josh exam over. Haha can't wait to test out on people when i learn first aid. Now i'm hoping people will injure themselves. Nevermind la 2nd sequel coming and its quite dangerous i think unless the plans change or something. High risk High returns but in this case high injuries. =DD By that time should have finished my first aid course liao ba. NOT TO FEAR SHANGZHAO IS HERE!! Haha i don't think people will trust my first aid skills though. Nevermind i just have to learn properly!!
WEE i'm so happy today don't know why EVEN PROMISED MEL TINKERBELL SHIRT HAHA!! But i owe her money la though like quite bad making her pay for her own shirt hahaaha!! LALA DUN CARE ANYMORE

I'm going to go do my homework wee!! BYEE!!

Errgh..stupid flu bug..i keep sneezing and coughing away and it's making me so tired. Hope i pass it on to someone else soon. Suffer with me!! Whew just one more day and A levels for josh is over. Lappy is most likely dead since he had 3 papers together yesterday. Haha what a screwed up schedule, it's horribly insane. It's unfair to him. By the time you finish 1 paper, your brain would have already used up it's energy. 3 papers at once? Gosh.

Anyway the recent days have been uneventful except saturday which i did something that was part of my childhood. CATCHING EARTHWORMS! haha you all might think i'm crazy or something as it was raining heavily that day. However, the earthworms were being washed onto the field near my house. There were so many earthworms!! Unfortunately i couldnt catch the really small ones and there weren't as many big earthworms to catch. Probably caught around 15 but well it's for my house's soil anyway. We've been growing a papaya tree and i've always remembered that i told my parents that we should have earthworms to make the soil more fertile. Considering we were doing organic farming, we would be doing everything natural. Meaning NO insecticide and pesticide. Well i went to the small plot yesterday to see if the earthworms were still there, but i think they burrowed underground. Hope the soil is self sustaining now and maybe when they start reproduction i can carry the worms over to my neighbour's plot. Earthworms are heramphodites meaning both male and female. Haha but as they say it takes 2 to tango, so they have to fornicate with one another =).

I need a part time job soon man. My expenditures are getting way out of line. Savings are dwindling. Wish i knew how to find a part time job though. Definitely not sales or waiter job. I'm clumsy and i don't know how to flatter customers.

Oh well..i'll see but in the meantime let's hope my flu goes away soon...irritating

My Contributions

I've been thinking about it. What have i been contributing to people? I seriously can't think of anything. Just take iDARE for instance. I've done virtually nothing for the team. The girls can do the preparations and stuff and the other 2 guys contribute joy and laughter to the team. I've done nothing in my life that's worth noting and yet i continue to waste my life away, just being a parasite to the world, leeching off it's already dwindling resources.

I'm like a walking empty shell. I can function but i can't do anything. Hope i don't live till my 60s or 70s. Just let my life end early that way the world will be safe from me. Don't worry, i'm not going to commit suicide. Everyone dies. I just want mine to be early

iDARE Afterglow

Went to chalet for afterglow on friday. Must say it's my first time going for a chalet during school days haha..but i'm not exactly hardworking so oh well..anyway chalet was fun la. Talk nonsense, eat junk food and sleep late. Isnt that fun but it has a name though; the iDARE lifestyle =). Anyway after sleeping for like 2 hours we woke up at around 3 to send one of the BTs off as she's taking a flight overseas. Coincidently i saw my neighbour and her family at the airport haha. Cool, she managed to get in the 10 person only trip overseas. Oh well, her results must be good or something. Anyway..we got thirsty soon and i went to buy my almond soybean milk. Morgan bought the ultra disgusting ginger soybean milk. It's DISGUSTING man don't ever waste your 1.80 on that stupid drink. It's horrendous..ergh. There i helped you guys save 1.80 =D. Well after that went for breakfast and slept in the chalet till 11 am. Afterglow had come.

Well..finally a event NOT in sentosa. I've been nearly bored to tears with sentosa's events. Anyway the turnout wasn't as much as expected but that always happens so the BTs if you're reading this don't be disheartened its normal all right? Anyway there was some confusion at first but well everything turned out pretty well. I just didnt like my route. Have to walk to and fro from one end to the other end and to the other end again. Haha it was like merry go round but well i'm unlucky i guess. The games thought up were pretty interesting for once BUT i hated the WARRIORS & KNIGHTS game. My chest still hurts man..too violent for my liking. Oh well.

Well, when we went back to the chalet talked about stuff etc. I was kinda unhappy then and was stoning. No idea why i was so unhappy but i have to apologise to my iDARE team..really really sorry. After watching the comedy show on tv, it perked me up instantly haha..and i started talking and listening to the stuff they were saying haha. I think mel was kinda shocked i suddenly so happy heh.

Well my mom left on sunday and i didn't send her off. I don't know what i'm doing sometimes..she's not going to be back till mid december and yet i was sleeping. I've never done much for my mom and at this crucial point i wasn't there for her. Unfilial. One word to describe what i haven't done for my mom. Sigh..and i can't see her till 1 and a half months later...maybe it's because i'm a guy and i'm not used to expressing my emotions to my family members...but i know for once that i really really miss her and that i should have sent her off. Suddenly i'm just overwhelmed by guilt..and depressed. Haha oh well enough of the sad topic.

I'm still a little lethargic because of iDARE as i haven't slept much even at home. Must rest more. Arrgh..and i have like tons of tidbits from the leftover's from afterglow. WHO WANTS?

A better day

Score 1 for me today and score 0 for josh and lappy. Seems like they didn't do very well for their GP paper...but hopefully it's really really difficult as they say it is. If everyone doesn't do well then the moderation will pull their grades up. Especially lappy i don't want to see your two rods kind of english to pop up in GP paper hahaha (It's a joke about his english). Good luck guys for the rest of your papers. Anyway today was pretty good despite the horrendous EAA lesson. Ng Lai Soon is the 'Best" la...in our lesson no one listens. I mean i try..but i seriously can't understand his words. If you see the top student in ACC doing his own work, you know how bad it is. Worst he's briefing us on our pre-test next tuesday. Oh well. Food always makes me happy and today went to coronation for a meal there. First time there. The food there's good. Haha and reasonably priced for its large portions. Felt super bloated especially and when the 2 dollar fries was ordered. Man..it was too much. The school's portion is like just nice for 3 people to eat but with the 2 dollars fries over at coronation? Haha overkill. Oh well as the chinese saying goes neng chi shi fu so yeah a well fed man is a happy man.

Went home early today..slept like a log..until two idiotic but lovable people called me. They know who they are la..and one of them is lappy. Woke me up to play DOTA? Oh well..been a while since i played anyway.

I have like loads of things to do like packing my bag to prepare for afterglow stayover tmr and the revision of my work and printing of notes which are not my notes haha. Its 10 now errgh i better rush..ERRGH!!

Finally about me

Well, i must say life hasn't been easy on me. At times i feel like studying because of my really screwed up results but at times i just feel like slacking because i've been really slacking for the past 18 years of my life. It just isn't me to sit down there and study. Well i've improved a little by doing my tutorials but that isn't going to help me much in getting results. Maybe it's because i don't know what i want in life to actually aim for something. I'm just drifiting around which of course can be seen through my actions. Maybe something is just missing in my life. I don't know what is it but i know something's missing. Hopefully i can find it as soon as possible. I've always wondered what i could do with voice acting. I've always like imitating different accents and conversing with myself but well it definitely needs polishing. Haha seems kinda weird to other people but it's what i do when i just want to entertain myself. Pretty interesting but it just sounds weird if i use it on people. I think i'm just nervous or something. So far only used the indian accent on josh. Of course its mean but still we had lots of laughs. I remembered i said something about fatherster because we have friendster. Well i can't exactly go into details because its kind of demeaning to the race.

Anyway i think around a few weeks back bought present for my shifu's birthday =D Haha went all the way to taka to give her only to realise that the few hours i've waited was at the wrong store!! Arrghh. Haha well apparently she worked at lvl 5 at a small area of puma instead of the bigger more luxurious puma store at basement i think. Well hopefully she liked it =D

I don't have great communication skills and its even more so with girls. Instead of developing them when i was a teenager, i spent my time sitting by the computer playing games and whatnot. When coming to poly i became lost and it became very obvious that i obviously lacked the skills for communication. Another sec sch friend Mark i can see has the same problems but well maybe its just gamers having such problems but still i'm generalizing.

I want to write more but i think i've written more than enough for you guys to slowly scroll and read. Getting tired. Updating again asap =) Once again i'm thankful i recovered my pw. Gosh..im so muddle headed

Memories

Haha..well josh and lappy's A level's are coming soon and i can see that they are working pretty hard on their A levels. Well i dunno about lappy but hopefully he is if not he's in deep trouble. 2 years back if i had made my choice to go to jc i'll be taking A levels with them. The times where we can ask help from one another and teach each other but with my current choice, i'm unable to do that with them. It makes me feel envious at times that what we could do in secondary school couldn't be done now. I've always thought to myself what would be different had i made a choice to go to a jc. I'll never know for sure but sometimes i just think i'm not cut out for studying. Of course in jc people will push you to study so somethings might change? I don't have that mental strength to persist in studying anyway. Worse off i'm in accounting. Double whammy. Sitting down on a chair and doing work for hours and hours isn't exactly what i'm comfortable with. Which leads me to thinking, why did i even choose accounting? Worse, it's my first choice haha. I thought it'll be interesting since it deals with numbers and stuff but frankly i don't understand anything that's being taught and with my chances of going uni a virtual zero makes me wonder even more what a big dope i am.

Anyway talking about josh, JC life hasn't been kind to josh. The stress he has in jc can be seen by his increase of white hairs. Must say its tough for him. Being president of harmonica club and organising other events along with his studies isnt exactly easy to juggle with. Of course he has had scout leadership experience and that helps alot. I've always regretted not joining scouts during sec 1. Man the fun they had and the learning experience would have definitely changed the person i am now. Instead of the ignorant bigot i am now to maybe someone who knows how to deal with stuff. Haha..well after josh's exam we're learning first aid. Makes me wonder why he wants to learn but still first aid is useful so i don't mind learning. After all my name is JOHN so add on an st and i'll be a first aider. Time to learn some things instead of wasting my life away. After all his going in to army as a diver in april so gives us lots of time to do stuff. Hmm maybe can train for army hopefully if time allows me and if he doesn't mind learning how to bake we could go learn. I've always wanted to learn baking..but i think its SISSY for him haha.

Well, his birthday's coming and i owed him this present since sec 1. Hmm its so hard to give guys gifts kinda funny la but well will scout around for presents for him. Of course i could continue being an ass and don't give him his present but it isn't right to do so anymore.

Well..good luck for josh and lappy's exam. I'm confident you guys can do it. Except for lappy..don't be an idiot and screw up your exam. Final sprint do your best.

GUYS I'M BACK!! Bugger..forgot my dear password but got it back whew...finally i can get back to blogging and i've like so many things that i could have written down but i've forgot em already. Let's just start from the stuff dating back to iDARE shan't we? This posting is going to be pretty long. =)

Haha..well iDARE was FUN as usual but things didn't go very smoothly throughout the camp and i didnt do much for my partcipants nor my fellow SFs and SSFs. At times i feel quite useless ya? I mean even when they asked me to cheer for participants i didn't even hear them. I went to sleep instead. What am i doing i can only ask myself? Well..it's over now..but i still feel sorry at times hmm make that most times that i didn't really help to make the camp a better success. Haha well during the rest day, we went to play ATV- All terrain vehicle ( i think thats how it's spelt). Darn fun man..but you never ever EVER want to let captain morg drive the ATV and you being the passenger. EVER. Shall we say he purposely speeds up during the muddy areas and any outgrowing branches he swerves towards them to let them hit you. Haha..well because of his rough handling of the ATV, when winson took over the ATV at some point, the ATV just dropped one of its wheels. Haha..super funny la when another ATV was driven by the caretakers to rescue us, when the engine was switched off it couldnt be on again. Well with my encouraging words of "Why not try again? It might work?" Behold! The turning of the ignition key caused the ATV to come to life and off we went. What is iDARE without new friends right? Haha of course must have some rewards right? I met my SHIFU whom hasn't taught me anything yet but she's wo hu chang long and thats all i'm going to say =)

Of course iDARE camp isn't the end of iDARE as we know of. Swensen's outing had came and where mel had just returned from swiss to give us chocolates ( i havent eaten them yet ). As with all iDARE outings it was NOISY. Noisy till the irrant customer asked us to shutup. Irritating idiot. If people go out as a group not noisy then might as well not go out. Haha well we purposely sang the birthday song for the october babies LOUDLY hoping to annoy the hell out of the irrant customer. Well hopefully it worked cause she left with her friends soon enough. Someone wasn't feeling very happy that day and i could see her crying but well..don't know what happened haha wouldn't be nice to ask anyway right?

The iDARE 2006 team is shaping up nicely with 3 of the male SF's all being lovers of mel and hopefully irritating the heck out of her. Of course capt morg once again has done the deed nicely. Especially so during the "steam boat" outing. Haha..the video of morg trying to kiss mel is super funny. Morg you're the man =). After the steamboat outing, went to rene's house to stay over. I love her house with all the bean bags..super comfortable la and she has like thousands of bean bags. Watched this movie ( i forgot the name ) not exactly touching or exciting but well i give it 3 stars. It's about this workaholic guy who loses his wife when she gives birth and where he subsequently loses his job. His left with the duty of taking care of his baby child. In the end when his child grows up at the ending he realises his family is more important than any job in the world. Thats about it. Starring Ben affleck, liv tyler and j.lo who dies shortly. Many don't know this touching real life movie called radio. Ed harris stars as this caring coach who treats a slightly mentally incompetent man Cuban Gooding Jr as his friend and well watch it for yourself if you ever have the chance to. After that we started talking about personal stuff, girlfriends and stuff which i OBVIOUSLY cannot partcipate in because i don't have a girlfriend before or currently. Which leads me to the question why people ask me either why i dont have a girlfriend now or a girlfriend before. Do i have a i have a girlfriend look? Am i even desirable to girls? I think the answer is NO! Hmm well..its a sad topic which i shan't dwell upon.

Then came sequel preparation. Sequel hasn't been exactly smoothsailing..but well we improvise won't we? Met up yesterday to discuss about the details and stuff to prepare for sequel. We went out to dinner afterwards where i had my first carl's jr meal. Okay, i'm a little swaku i know haha. The portion of the burger is huge man. I was super hungry at first but after the meal i felt bloated. It's horrendously big la. Of course i think i still prefer billy bomber's burger. The burgers are amercian portions but their excellent. Only ate once at holland v a few yrs back with my family. I still miss the taste occasionally but then i'm hell not going alone to have a meal there as the prices aren't exactly cheap. After our dinner we bought this carrot for rosa haha..the crazy ideas the iDARE team thinks of.

Yeah!! Afterglow is coming soon which means i won't be doing my tutorials..i need to go schedule soon. =D Haha luckily shifu today told me she's going. Well hope we have lots of funnn =D

Thats about it for iDARE posting will have more next time when sequel starts.