Fun Time with RO

Haha had so much fun today during bdae celebrations for our RO at KTV today haha..the funny antics by our RO and few other colleagues got me laughing haha...will post up the pictures and videos as soon as i get them =D. It made me lift my mood of missing Singapore alot and i hope it'll last me another 10 more weeks. I know it still takes me much time to warm up but i am slow person you have to give me time.

Well the main reason i posted and can't wait to post is because of the fact that i'll forget the feeling soon enough so i decided to quickly post it in case i forgot.

While i was somewhat in the middle of the KTV Session, i suddenly thought of her. My first KTV session was with her. I know i'm tone deaf in KTV's because i can't hear myself at all and when i sang tong hua, she said well at least u aren't so tone deaf now haha...well..truth be told i thought the feelings got chucked out straight out of the window of my heart after i learnt recently of her well...other half. But of course, i never did try anything and i couldn't confirm my feelings then.
Well whatever the point is, i thought it was gone but unfortunately it was just hidden away deep in the recesses of my heart and the moment glimpse of truth uncovered itself during the KTV. I was sitting there and staring into the empty spaces of the room after the sudden thought of her and then it took me by surprise. A clear image of me embracing her just appeared in my mind. I guess it was just a moment of passion in my partial drunken state or it could still be that i still like her...but it doesn't matter anyway. I'm too held back by the failures that might occur that in the end, i end up failing. Whatever it is, it just shows that some things will always be in your heart hidden..but it takes time to find something to cover it up and ensure that when you die, the secrets of the treasure buried deep within you, can never be uncovered except by the little guy living inside of you called Memory when you are still able to breathe air.

Haha, it's pretty late now better go off to sleep!! Nitez all

Life is like a storybook.

Though your parents started it, you write the story and decides how it ends. Is your story exciting like a thriller? Or its just plain boring? And how does your ending go about? Does it end off with a bang or no one even knows that it has ended. Whatever it is i've wrote 1/4 of my story and it sure hell isn't readable.

Anyway another classic case where effort does not equals to results and frankly this is a pretty unfair world at times. Well...that's all

So basically there's nothing much new because i've been going home after work and not going out and also staying at home on the weekends. Ha..that's totally lame i know. I'm in a foreign country and yet i stay at home might as well just stay in sg right? Ah...well with this cold weather i don't like going out when i can be in the comfort of my room and watching videos..sounds pretty no life and well not educational at all but still...

Anyway just 3 days ago kinda felt ill i guess..was shivering like mad but it wasnt supposed to be like that. Went home to sleep and felt like fudge when i woke up. Vomitting sensation coupled with dizzines, made it impossible for me to even wait for the water dispenser to dispense water. Though i was thirsting like a lost soul in the desert, i couldn't focus and had to lie down again. Took off from work for a bountiful rest and boy it sure helped. Maybe i had some viral infection cause i sure didn't have any fever or whatsoever ah well it's over and i'm all right.

Winter's definitely coming. The rapid drop in temperature is a clear indicator for sure.

Sigh calling home and being reminded of how stupid u can be is fudging sad especially when i havent called in 2 weeks ah well, i deserved it anyway.

Learning learning learning. That's all i hear from my parents. Learn what though..good question i should start thinking about it.

Recently i've been lapsing in concentration. Don't know what's wrong though. Maybe i've been overplaying games and watching videos my brain isn't working hard sigh...i just hate it.

Life,
what is it?
Isn't being happy all that matters?
Why do you need to be successful or learned to be happy?
Doesn't anyone understand that simpliness gives you happiness just the same?
Why can't people see my point of view too?
Don't we all make mistakes?
Don't my parents make mistakes?
Yet, i take the blame.
Suffering and never benefitting
What have i benefitted?
Have i even won anything before?
Of course, it all boils down to my incompetence.
But why then, am i forced to suffer so much.
Did i do something wrong in my previous life?
Or is it just due to my own incompetence that suffering begins.
I guess it's my incompetence.
If my Karma is going to suck even more, come on bring it on.
What else can u take from a person who has nothing?
My life? Yeah, might as well.
It's the only valuable thing i have left.