Sunday, August 30, 2009

The weekends are getting shorter Arghh!! And next Sunday is my guard duty so it's going to be even shorter..i need a break. Wallaby's stores are taking up too much energy and time. I hope i can get it over with quickly..it's really draining.

35 Hours of duty and only 7 hours of sleep haha...is this what the Specs have to live with when in army? Had to stay awake after duty in order to pack Wallaby stores. At least it's training my responsibility and accountability towards my men and fellow colleagues. Hope it helps in my future job! Well the mentality i gain from it that is haha.

Tuesday was spent on running...argh..slow like mad..how can i ever complete 21km..3 more months! PLEASE MAKE IT IN TIME!

Haha friday went to home club and opened a bottle of Ukita Whiskey....damn..37 bucks gone just like that. All i wanted was some Asahi beer! Haha a bottle of whiskey shared amongst 4 people is quite sair i would say. Saturday was pratically spent stoning at home. Didn't feel like doing anything haha. Just wanted to lie around and waste time :P Well at least mustered some energy after my afternoon nap to go watch Scandal maker and soccer at night which got me a $30 fine !#@!#!@# stupid parking coupon! ARGH. Scandal maker was good i would say haha..i mean well besides the mother being very cute, and the little kid was downright adorable, the storyline was pretty good. Haha imagine being a grandfather in your early 30s...that's quite funny :D It was pretty predictable how things were going to end up but it was a heartwarming comedic movie that kept me fully glued even when i had to use the gents terribly :). A++ Recommended.

Slept like a log after reaching home from the match. From 4 am to 2.30 pm Haha! THE ULTIMATE TIREDNESS but considering i haven't really been sleeping for the past few days..i think it's just a matter of my body trying to rejuvenate itself. And i haven't been going to the supermarket for grocery shopping haha..let's hope supplies can last. Anyone want to do some grocery shopping on Saturday? Haha..it's a lonely lonely job!

Upcoming Friday at home club to listen to ET's band playing. Let's see whether they are good. Besides that Saturday is still empty..let's see how i'm going to fill it up.

Argh having writers block...my brain is totally fizzed out. REST!

SZ is just going to sleep his way through when he has the time.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Whew...long weekend...but i would say i didn't rest much haha...been sleeping late for the past few days..i didn't hit the 10 pm to 2 am recovery periods :(. Probably that's why i feel so tired recently...spent the whole sunday afternoon sleeping. Total knockout and if my brother didn't wake me up to go out for dinner today i would have probably slept like the whole day haha. Dinner was pretty all right..only certain dishes struck a chord with me. The rest were pretty normal i would say. Only the steamed fish and beer cooked pork ribs were special i would say :) Expensive dinner too.

Let's see Friday was pretty good haha morning was spent playing soccer..managed to get a little tan :). After that went home for a nap and at night went to Timbre. Finally able to meet Abner (DOH why did i leave the birthday card in your bag). Pizza's good as usual and the Tapas dishes are good too :). Whoever wishes to try Hazel Liq and Almond Liq combined..go ahead and try Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...it's a ultra weird taste...didn't really like it haha. So no prizes for people who are actually daring to try. Anyway, we didn't get to enjoy much as our seats were quite far away from the live band...so we didn't really get a very good view of the band. Didn't manage to enjoy the music that much haha...never mind i'm sure the next time i go would be better (this coming friday again?). Caught Bruno as a midnight movie. I would say it isn't as nice as Borat...haha or maybe i'm just not that comfortable seeing gay scenes on live screen? It's quite a crude movie but nevertheless i think it isn't that bad a movie. Anyway, there aren't any better movies around for now..unless i catch District 9. Seems to have pretty good reviews despite the supposedly low budget of 30 million(low compared to other movies?) Caught Where got ghost during the week. Jack Neo could have produced much better movies than that. It was a total waste of money so people please don't go watch it in cinemas. Save your 8 dollars to eat at Subway instead :) Mmmmm...subway....yummy

Ahh Saturday...the best day for going out for every single human...well...didn't get to do much as morning was spent on dental. Horrible tightening of teeth. The wire was changed to a thicker one and some rubber with little holes on them was slowly stretched across my teeth. I can hardly chew now. Especially on the right side of my mouth..pratically no strength to chew...even grinding is pretty difficult. The agony of wearing braces!

Dinner at paramount hotel was pretty good. It's like buffet for Zi Char but in a classier setting. Of course the food there was pretty good too haha...and since they offered Salmon Sashimi, of course i helped myself to them haha. Pig? Check. Fattening? Check. Fail 21km run? Maybe haha.

Oh yeah i went to sign up for the 21km Standard Chartered Run. Haha at least now i have company either Christine or Nick? But i don't think he has registered for it yet. I would most likely be able to complete it..but whether i can run a decent timing for it is another thing altogether haha. Well at least i would get a rough feel of how it's like when i run till the end of ECP and back on Tuesday. Doomsday :) Plus going Wallaby..don't know whether i can train there..hopefully i can...hopefully...once i get back from Wallaby..i'll be having quite a fair bit of free time :P CLEARING OF 14 DAYS OF LEAVE BY THEN! Maybe a trip to Thailand in December? :)

Like a trend, I come and go...remembered and forgotten just as quickly. If i could make one wish and that wish allows me to wish for anything that i want. Wealth, power, health etc, all i would do is just wish to be able to look into your mind and know what you think or at least learn of the truth haha. Such a simple wish isn't it? Yet, if you look at it carefully, understanding the human mind is more complex than wishing for something as simple as wealth. Social interactions are difficult. 10 years of gaming hasn't helped much to develop my social skills. Who to blame? Only myself to blame. I wished i could learn from the experience...but not knowing what i did wrong or right, i have no way of learning haha...i'm miffed but still, it's part of life.

Past, Present, Future.
The Past is your teacher.
Present your Lover.
Future your dreams.
Learn from your past,
cherish the present,
and chase after your dreams.

That's what that makes us unique in our own way. Our past are all different and they shape what we are like now hence, we have our own peculiar ways and methods of dealing with things haha. It's exactly like the term we reap what we sow.

I still believe the world is a simple place if we all believe in it. Humans just like to complicate things.

SZ is a lazy pig!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Hahaha excellent first start of the season. Arsenal's 6-1 thumping of Everton has never felt better. Fabregas has some additional tricks in his sleeves now...time to get the new Arsenal jersey and print his name on :D. I hope he never ever leaves Arsenal. He's the one who can bring us up. We cant lose him yet..4-5 more years at least?

A year of AHM wasted on car parking which didn't even require my presence. The change of plans to free parking definitely didn't require my help at all. I would have so much preferred to go run that 6km though it's a little bit short on distance. I'm going to Fk care army protocol for the next AHM...i don't see why do i have to clock 16km of training if i'm training on my own. Besides i'm doing guard duty every single day..how am i supposed to go for the army training for AHM? Hopefully i can run the 21km before my ORD. Let's consider next year's AHM as my ORD gift? Next year ain't guards that is organising the AHM so i'll be free bwahahha. 1 year to train..it shoud be more than enough right? hahaha...any interested parties wish to train this fat lump of lard? Joshua? Hahaha Ex Diver help me :)

Let's see the schedule for the week...gym on monday, run/swim on tuesday, swim on wednesday again if we're not going for nights out. Thursday book out and run :D Challenge the mountain again. This time i'm clocking timing. Friday hmm. Promise yourself not to get lazy Mr SZ

Friday one full day of off what to do what to do...decisions decisions. Well i shall find some things to do i'm sure :). Dinner probably meeting up with Josh..unless he's busy well...let's wait till then.

Back to the good old days of grocery shopping...with mom not around i have to buy groceries again haha. Also, back to accounts training....this time i must keep the reciepts hahaha..threw all those away last time...making my mom pek chek i would say.

In the meantime, every week gone is a week closer to getting out of the army haha. 1 month to my 1 year anniversary in army. Time should fly. After that month leaves only a month to Wallaby. 3 weeks in the savanah...shouldn't be that bad right? Besides mom isn't around so i don't think she should miss me haha.

Andrew Furmanczyk. Hopefully you can teach me how to play the piano. But i guess no matter how good a teacher you are and that your lessons are free on youtube haha, it still requires hard work to learn. Don't get lazy SZ promise yourself.

Haha Kiki is crawling into my hand more often..she's getting used to my smell i would say even though i only get to play with her over the weekends. I'm going to adopt one dog even if my mom kills me for it haha. This will only come into play when i ORD...if not it's quite selfish to adopt one now...can't even take care of it when i'm in camp all the time. Well that's a thought. 1 years time.

I've broken alot of promises in the past but i realised how people get disappointed when you break them especially to my mom and friends. Do you want to disappoint yourself? Haha do not onto others what you do not want to be done on yourself. This age old saying sure sounds true. I need to start living a more fulfilling life..if not my self worth is practically making me a bankrupt. Learning new things should make my life more enriching right? This life can only get harder as we grow up... i must move up the next level if i want to continue surviving. The world isn't as beautiful as i thought it was. It's cold, harsh and cruel. Everytime you gain from it, it'll crush you and take away more from you. That's why we have to be fighters...keep fighting till you have breathed your last that's when you can stop. Time to stop being the naive little boy...learn to protect yourself. Haha penny for the thoughts...one day looking back all these entries, i shall know how have i changed. These entries shall be the testament of the fact that i've lived.

Booking in to another week. Time to step up the responsibilities.

SZ is trying to occupy his mind from wandering.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Ahhh 2 rounds around the Mt Vernon route...it's not a long distance but it sure is tiring haha...my stamina is bad i would admit...that probably comes from 16 years of inactivity thus not developing any cardiovascular strength....well i'm pretty sure the macdonald's i chowed down when i was younger assisted the bad stamina :D

In the stillness of the night,
a lone figure cuts through the dark.
The musky air surrounds him,
but he busies his mind with his thoughts.
Communicating with his heart,
he presses on,
telling himself not to give up
The last gasp of air,
for the final burst of speed.
Lo and behold,
he reaches the final point.
Though tired & exhausted,
he cannot help but feel a sense of achievement.

I must continue this running habit for the next 2 weeks haha..at least 2 times a week or more. Promised to run with my upperstudy from camp till the end of ECP and back before he goes on his ORD leave...that's a LOT of KM hahaha...i shan't give up on it. A promise is a promise :D. Although i'm going to die fulfiling this crazy idea of his, it's one of the last few times i can see him. He has taught me a lot on my job. It's time to step up and take over his place in time. 1 year 1 month left to my ORD date haha...it should pass by quite quickly. I hope.

SZ is going to go into snoozing mode. More updates tomorrow :D
Arghhh...Timbre trip got cancelled because yes...you guessed it abner again haha..why thank you ABNER!! hahha well at least next friday i have one full day off for AHM. I obviously will not get to participate since MPS are almighty and need to be helping out for every single minor thing and that includes car parking...even though i doubt it requires us to personally be at the car park...oh well. 3.30 am i have to reach Singapore recreation club on Sunday...yes...it's damn bloody early i know. VIP guests includes well DPM himself so it'll be interesting the meet the man himself face to face haha. Well i can always go straight away after the Arsenal match :) PLEASE WIN AGAINST EVERTON!!

Let's see tomorrow should be a packed day haha...don't know about next week though. Let's see how it goes..hmm.

Chomp Chomp for dinner tomorrow wahhaha it's been a while since i went back. Time to bring my upperstudy for his first meal there.

The sudden awakening,
realisation of truth.
The liberation within,
the ambiguity that worries.
Momentary pain,
lifelong freedom.

Which would you choose? :)

Mmmm free time free time...what should i do? Pick some skills up? Hahaha...buy an OVEN first Mr Procasination...what happened to your baking hobby lazy pig. Determination...that's what i lack goshh.

Anyway it's 10 oclock...time to challenge Mt Vernon again...running beside a columbarium at night...that should keep me on my toes :D Especially with the poor lighting there...even better for creepy ghoulies :)

SZ has never felt better!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Ahh few more hours to book in..and i just went for a short run...Mt Vernon can seriously kill me...haha never ending hill!! Errgh..i shall conquer it twice when i'm fitter hehe...it seriously trains my legs. Haha at least it gets my mind off things.

Mom is leaving on wednesday for 3 and a half months to Myanmar haha this time half a month longer...well..she's going to do the thing she likes best again...besides meditation requires alot of body energy..if you're too old it becomes difficult to concentrate..so let her be :)

Besides after my Wallaby i think she should be back haha..time would fly i guess. Wallaby isn't such a bad thing...i can take my mind of things...heh...maybe it'll allow me to think less strongly...and so my thoughts won't be occupied with you all the time...it's too much pressure on you too heh.

Maybe the answer is just staring at me right in the face...but i'm just ignoring the signs :) Oh well.

I guess i'll focus more time on my studies heh...as what my mom tells me prepare for my University..let's see what course i wanna take..back to accounting? Or trying something new like economics...1 more year to plan and read up on some of the courses books. At least i will know more or less what i like. I shall slowly take my time!

Next friday Timbre! YES! Haha..i hope the live band is there and let's hope abner doesn't fall sick again wahaha. Maybe saturday reserved for sispec mates..but let's see how it goes.

SZ is back to another mundane existence in the guardroom.
终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Haha..what apt description :) I love the lyrics heh.

Joshua we need to meet up and have a heart to heart talk man..it's been a long time...8 years of friendship...

All right 12 more hours to book in..let's enjoy :)
Hahaha let's see...friday booked out and met my mp friends well 2 of them only since abner fell sick haha...ate dinner talked for nearly 2 hours then went to hang out at the arcade center...yes...quite boring i would say but that's because i had to go home early so that i can wake up on time the next day. Haha..well saturday was pretty well spent because UP was a great movie. Thought provoking with a tinge of humour plus nostalgia from other childhood movies. I would say it would be the best pixar movie i watched this year :). Especially the part where Carl was so devoted to his wife...i wonder would that happen in this modern society? Besides that i think the most lovable character was russell :). Doug obviously ranks 1st on my favourite character list because i love dogs and he reminds me of robin, my neighbour's golden retriever. SQUIRREL! :)

Today was my dad's early celebration for his 60th birthday haha...he's real birthday is on August 14...well...i know i'm not on very good terms with you but...happy birthday still dad! Besides that nothing much except talking to my cousin about army stuff. 1 month later than me to ord Wahaha!! Well...at least it's something to talk about :D.

DELETE DELETE DELETE...although i spent quite some time to write it. I shall save it in a word document...after all you know my blog and you can read everything :). What am i to you in your eyes..i have no idea..but to me you are everything :)....in the meantime it's as per normal.

SZ shall enjoy his long weekend :).

Saturday, August 08, 2009

I will not allow myself to have any regrets. I shall face my fears and in time all will fall in place.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Whew...quite a busy sunday! Went out for Public enemy! Haha i would say it's a pretty good movie and Johnny Depp played a very convincing role in John Dillinger. I just love Johnny Depp haha he's just so versatile. It's kinda fanboyism if i were to say every movie Johnny Depp acts in i would love it Haha! Maybe he can take the role of Joker in the upcoming batman sequels? It'll be pretty cool!

After that went home for a while before going for canvas photo taking which took approxmiately 3 hours? Haha only went for dinner at around 9.30..hungry! I'll probably post the pictures online when i get em :)

Haha probably gonna catch hossan leong on stage having fun with his very own "talk show". Hope it'll be funny :D! Abner told me about it and he's probably bringing his friends. Let's see if i can rope anyone in haha.

Sometimes it just gets so confusing. Mixed signals at times or just false impression on my part? I don't know. But i know if this keeps up..it's just going to get very tiring. I keep telling myself it's never easy..but there doesn't seem to be anything to show me if i'm moving in the correct direction. Maybe i'm just too non-romantic to get people interested? If being what I am a nice person works...then i have to say it has a high failure rate then. If not why till now single haha. Haha...well I'm just going to enjoy whatever singlehood has to offer for now.

I'm late for booking in tata. At least my weekend is packed for the upcoming week...something to look forward to!

SZ is annoyed with his sore throat. I'm getting tired of this weak constitution. Tired with my weak will. Tired of being made fun of my looks. I'm reaching my limit. I'm going to explode soon i know. I just hope my men don't get the full blast.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Haha so today was spent meeting yx and yw for lunch at the new shopping center at bugis "illuma" haha. Had cheese pizza at the empire state restaurant! The food's good actually haha and the portion is rather big...should have shared the pizza man. After that went to great world because illuma didn't have the timeslot for ice age 3..it was only at 5...and at that time it was around 2 plus? haha so travelled to great world to watch. It's quite a good sequel actually. The idea is still fresh and never dull haha so i would say it's a good sequel. Maybe i'll catch the next one if it does come out :)

Tomorrow probably meeting abner just for movie..public enemies haha...forego the swim i guess..coming down with flu i don't think i want to risk it. As to why i am starting to have flu..imagine it raining at night and not having blanket for 4 days..yes..that's what happened..brought the blankets in camp for changing on monday and QM ran out..great. Freezed to death during those few days haha.
Anyway, after the movie should be photo taking with the family for graduation pictures that should be about it keke. And it's back to camp! I have guard duty on monday..and my first time being guard commander...it shouldn't be a problem i guess :) I must have confidence!

Let's see...upcoming weekend activities for the coming week. Friday meeting up with MP section..but location to be confirmed again...if i want to have dinner with them..let's hope it's somewhere nearer to my camp..if not i don't think i can meet them on time wahaha..maybe forego dinner and just meet up? Let's see how it goes.

Saturday is reserved for only one thing UP! I've been waiting for it since 2 months ago when i saw the trailer. I watch it no matter what! AND it has to be ASAP! Friday is impossible to get tickets unless i book in advance and...i'm unable to get a companion for it! Even if its Saturday i hope the tickets don't run out.

Sunday is my dad's 60th birthday celebration with National Day haha..looks like it's going to be quite a major celebration so let's see how it goes..and afterall i get a off the next day for that so..Yeah!!!

In the meantime i should go sleep..let's hope i'm disciplined enough to wake up early tomorrow to run! :D

SZ is just pondering...